Back At One

Shawn: Holding Him

My heart was racing when I saw her again she is my whole world and more. She had my first child I wanted to be there but I couldn't. I didn't want to but I had to my past was coming back to hunt me I had to leave and if I didn't she and my son would had been killed. If I told her that she would have came with me "Talk to me please" I said while we was in the car she looked pissed and her eyes was starting to get red she was crying and she hated crying in front of me. All I wanted to is hold her and sing our song her ear until she felt better. She pulled up to her mom's house it was the still the same all this time "Come on the bitch still get drunk and he has my....our  son" she said as she turned the car off "Wait, why would you leave him with her?" I yelled as I got out of the car she followed "I have nobody else nigga. You wasn't around I lost most of my friends and the others are at work" she yelled back "What about daycare?" I asked "Closed it got burned down" she said as she walked up the steps and took out her keys. When she opened the she ran upstairs where the cries was coming from and I followed her. When I got upstairs her mom was passed out on top of my son he was crying out for air Dev pushed her mom off and picked him up calming him down "Shhhhhh my little prince mommy is here" she said as she rocked him he started to calm down "What is his name?" I asked she looked at him "His name is Saa" she said as she walked up to me "Hold him for me will you? I have to handle this bitch for a minute" she said I nodded and took him in my arms "Watch his head" she added before she went to handle her mom and that moment he opened his eyes he has my light brown eyes and nose. To top everything off he smiled at me like he knew who I was "Mom I don't want to you around me and Saa EVER AGAIN" I heard Devin say to her mom after fixing herself and walks out door I followed her with our son in arms "He is six months old you didn't miss much" she said coldly when she took her mom's house key off her keychain and threw it far away "I can help you with him if you let me" I said as I looked at him I felt her look at me with her dark brown eyes "Yes that would great you are his father" she said I looked at her she still looks sexy with her wild curly hair that she fight with in the morning she had no make-up on she looked like that before she went to bed and when she wake up she had a baggy black shirt with matching shorts and to top it off she had her Gir slippers on "Thank you Devin I will be there no cap" I said she smiled at me and walked to car. When we got to the car she took him from me they felt empty without him in them "I'm showing you how to put him in his car seat so when you you take him you'll know what you know what you are doing when you pick him up and drop him off" she said as she started to strap him in the car seat I was so fucking lost she was telling where did everything go but all I can do is look at her ass and her body it was a lot for me to handle. When she was done she looked at me she caught me looking at her "You was lost the whole time wasn't you?" she asked me "Fuck ya how am I supposed to focus when your dressed like this you know what your body does to me" I said she hit me like she always did "Don't cuss around my son" she said as she closed the car door when she started to walk away I wanted to grab her and kiss her on her soft lips and tell her that I love her.