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Devin: Again

I miss you echoed over and over again in my head. He left us for someone else and now he claims that he "Miss me" I wanted to laugh in face but I knew that I would be lying if I did. The truth is that I miss him too. We was together for four years before the break up and I cried over him every night until just now and when I decided that it's time to for me to move on here he is at my doorstep telling me this. I stood there looking at him like he is fucking up thing about all of this is shit. I stood there looking at him like he is fucking crazy "Did you hear me?" he asked I nodded "Yeah but I think you're fucking capping" I said as I started to close the door in his face " D wait" he said "You don't get to call me that anymore" I yelled then I slammed the door in his face I started to cry and slowing sat on the floor and leaned against the door he called me D that's my nickname that he gave me it's short for Devin. I sick of crying, begging, forgiving, and wanting him the fucked up thing is the nigga was my world for four plus years of my life. I gave to him and he fucks me over for some bitch that he just met. After crying for a hour I got up and looked at my phone he called me fifteenth times while I was crying. I got up and got in the shower . When I tried to fall asleep my phone went off so I rolled over to see what it was it was him again this time it was a text that read I'm not leaving til u talk 2 me "What?" I thought as I jumped out of bed went to my window he was sitting there on my steps smoking like he always did when he waited for me. I looked at my phone it was twelve a.m. I opened my door just enough for him to hear me "You need to go Shawn" I said. I finally build up the courage to say his name "Not until I see him" he said as he turned to look at me "He's not here he's at my mom's" I said coldly "How could you not tell me?" he asked I opened the door more "I was going to the day you left me for her"   I said  he got up and walked to the door "I'm sorry about that and for not being there for y'all I moved with her and that was the biggest mistake of my life Devin I miss you and I want to meet our son" he said as he reached out for me I stepped back and signed "Go home Shawn" I said before I closed the door then I heard the phone rang it was my mom "Hey mom" I said "Heyyyyy Dev" she said follow by a laugh "Mom are you fucking drunk right now?!?!?!" I yelled as I grabbed my car keys "Noooo baby of course not....... Ok fine your son is tooooooo much like youuuuu he won't shut up all he does is fucking cry" she said I heard him crying in the background "Fuck mom why now out of all fucking times now you want to pull you're shit" I said when I rushed out and hung up "Come on your meeting your son" I said as I rushed passed him.