She's not the same

Chapter 7

School. A six letter word for me that means hell hole. I see Jay with Terry everyday and it hurts. I'm a mess and now there's cuts up my arms. I only wear long sleeves or t-shirts with my jacket on or bracelets on. I've been thinking more and more about death. It no longer scares me, the thought of dying. At school, on my birthday (January 27th) Terry and Jay start walking towards me away from Terry's locker and Terry lets go of Jay's hand and walks up to me and growls "Stay the fuck away from my man. Don't think about him. Don't look at him. Don't even talk to him! Stupid bitch." And storms off. But he's all I can think of. Even though he hurt me and cheated on me he's my only thought. The fucking pain is literally killing me. I know that something was going to happen tonight. I'm going to end all of this pain. I'm leaving this world tonight. Goodbye Terry. Goodbye Jay. Goodbye everyone. I'm to broken to live.

                       *        *        *

*2:27 pm that night*

I look out the window knowing that it would be the last time I ever would. But suddenly I hear banging on the front door. I think nothing of it and walk to the kitchen and grab a knife and run back to my room. Someone at the door bangs on it again. I again ignore it. Then a third time it bangs on the door. I was going to ignore it but from upstairs I hear my brother shout "See who is at the goddamn door Danielle! I'm trying to fucking sleep!" So I set the knife down on my bed and run to the door and move the curtain only to see Jay. "What the hell?" I whisper to myself. I quietly open the door and say "What the hell are you doing here?" I whisper. "I'm sorry for everything I've said about you. Also..." "Also what?" "Roll up your sleeve." "No." "I've seen the cuts. I've also seen that they've gotten deeper everyday. I never said anything because I didn't want to piss Terry off. But." He shrugged his shoulders. "She left me for the football captain." Next thing I know my brother shouts "Let whoever is at the door inside or make them leave and shut the goddamn door!" So I quickly pulled Jay inside and shut the door. I then ask him "So why are you here?" I ask. "I was wrong to say those mean things to you and I was wrong to leave you..." Before he could finish I take off running towards my room and stand in the middle of my room with my back to the door while hoping he didn't follow but all of a sudden I feel a pair of hands snake around my waist and hands interlock at my stomach. He then turns me around and I stare into his beautiful green eyes. He then lifts a hand to the side of my face and kisses me. But I break the kiss and tell him to wait there. I run into my mom's room and whisper "Hey mom Jay is staying the night is that okay?" She then mumbled back "Sure whatever just behave." I tipptoed out of her room and then booked it back to my room and say "Hey Jay you're staying the night okay?" "Okay he says as he pulls me into a hug but suddenly his arms drop and he says "What's that?" "What?" I reply as I turn around to see what he is looking at and I suddenly remember the knife on my bed. I run and grab it and throw it behind my dresser and say to him "There isn't anything." "I want to talk about this." "Well I don't." "Okay I won't pressure you into talking about it right now." He tells me as he plops down on my bed and afterwards says "Can I sleep here?" "Yeah of course." I say as I grab a random pajama shirt and pants from my dresser and go to the other room to change. When I get back from changing and taking off my jewelry I come into my room with him under the covers of my blanket and him staring at me. I then climb up next to him and he wraps his around me and whispers "I'm glad you forgave me." As I fall asleep in his arms.