you ruined ny for me.

ny.

*alarm rings*

yawn.

oh my.

I wake up to the annoying sound of my alarm and the way too bright at this time sun.

yawn. 

I reach for my phone and turn to my side to check the time.

12:45pm

Well so much hype for my first day in the big apple. I was exhausted. I stayed up last night till 2 am trying to get my life together. See im not one for big organization but with this all window apartment I managed to get for a expectable price New York could only have I can let it go to actual filth. 

I'm 18 now, I have to try and want to have a life. 

I totally don't sit in bed for half an hour on social media because it's so damaging for mental health or isn't that what that case every influencer has now a days. Totally to irony actually how their job isn't mentally damaging yet their on it 24/7 but have a case to remind them of it every time they take a mirror pic. 

What a world we live in. 

I manage to get out of bed and head over to the kitchen. 

I make a fruit bowl and cook up some bacon and eggs because what's life without these. I even get myself a cup of orange juice with no pulp thank you very much. What a gentleman I am. 

I get dressed for the day I don't have planned but we respect the effort. Ever picked out an outfit for a day not planned, that's another type of stressful. 

I play some harry styles. As well as the rest of the 12 year old girls around the globe do. 

His new album might have touched me a little. no worries I haven't gone totally soft for this foreign man with an accent. I have some integrity left, I think. 

I pick out a silky white blouse with blue ripped jeans with air forces. High fashion I know don't even say anything I know never done before. 

I grab my phone and head out. 

The thing is I don't have a car I thought having one in ny was not necessary since im surrounded by Ubers.

Ive never taking one. 

I actually love walking though and now I can actually walk places. 

As I head out of the lobby I take a big deep breath. 

I'm out on my own finally.

I'm terrified. 

What could go wrong?