Scars

Older Age

Chap.26, (Steven Edward Romanchak)

There are times in life when you feel that you have achieved a whole new level of freedom in every aspect of life, be it emotionally, financially, intellectually, But the second such moment of liberating realization passes, a person walks into your life with whom you start connecting thoroughly in multiple aspects and build a connection that you hope would stay for a lifetime.

You start sharing things that you hadn't dare to share with anyone, you expose yourself in hope of extending your being with that of another surviving soul, a desire that we all share internally. That moment, you lose your freedom for good and start becoming dependent on them.

You share your vulnerabilities, aspirations, failures, achievements and so do they. Then in another flip of a second, quite unexpectedly and surprisingly, you wake up to find them walking out of your life.

You are made to face this fact in life that people walk into your life, some stay for longer and some walk out quite early. There would be very few people who would be there beside you for your complete lifetime.

Your parents might be there for you always, till probably inevitable separates them from you. Apart from them, people come into your life, they play their part in your story, make memories that might be unforgettable, mend you into a person you are today and then, yes, they leave for a time unsure.

They might return if they are destined to play more part in your story. Till then, you would have to live with the first one they played and keep loving and living the life that you are blessed with, the way it is.

People come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any possible wrongdoing on your part or theirs or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. And sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into our lives for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season. Lifetime relationships teach us lifetime lessons; that you must build on to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant.

Steven Edward Romanchak came into my life in 2008 for a REASON, he gave me strength when I needed to believe in myself. He gave me love when I felt unlovable and he gave me an enormous amount of Joy. His laughter was healing to my sad and weary soul. His glances showed me that I am worthy of love, that I am and was a beautiful, vibrant woman. That I am strong, resourceful and that I can achieve whatever I strive to do in life. He helped me prepare for my goals and was always, super supportive. He was my number one fan and my cheering section. Then after a year, his purpose for my life was over he walked out of my life and moved away.

I battled with myself and tried to analyze what went wrong. I beat myself up for months and I wished that I had a time machine that I could go back in time and set everything right.