Just Best Friends (Park Jimin FF)

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Y/N POV

Elle handled the situation yesterday and we got home. There's a quite atmosphere next morning at breakfast. I decide this is the best time to bring up the topics, "Jimin" he looks at me "How do you feel about having kids?" he chokes on his food and I pass him water.

"I-I I don't know" he says and my heart shatters into a million pieces. he doesn't want a kid? what will I do now? "I mean, I would love to have kids with you. Don't get me wrong, but right now... our careers...we're both working people and having a child would really...." his voice turns into a whisper and he looks away.

I nod, looking away. I try to blink away my tears, hopefully he won't notice. I don't even know why I'm crying, I think the same thing. But I feel like there was some part of me that hoped he would be all giddy about having a kid, but deep down I knew that won't be the case. "What do you think?" he asks not looking at me. "I....would love to have kids with you. I would love to have a mini us running around. I know that we're both working people. But work is a daily thing, we'll work even after we have kids so why not have them now?-" I stop mid-sentence. 

I spoke too much I don't dare to look up as I can feel Jimin looking at me. "Y-Y/N...." please say it Jimin, please ask me, please be happy after hearing what I say "I have to go" he gets up and leaves. I just look at him leaving closing the door shut and then the tears I've been holding in for so long stream down my cheeks.

My heart is in literal pain, he doesn't want kids, I understand. But I didn't know he would pick his career over his family, I mean it's been 3 years, we've done so much. I started my own company, BTS is a big hit (pun intended) all over the world. They're done touring and basically we're past the peak of our careers, I feel like we won't ever stop not being famous.

But it wasn't his words, it was his actions that hurt me even more. I know he sensed something, but he pushed it away. He left instead of bringing the topic up, I'm glad he left though cuz if he was in front of me I don't think I could've stopped myself from yelling at him.

JIMIN POV

She's pregnant, I know it. I know what I said hurt her, I could see her blinking those tears away, I could see the pain in her eyes. I left her sitting there, if I can't even take care of her how will I take care of my child? I'd be such a bad father. I'm scared, I'm so scared that my nervousness overpowers my happiness. 

My career, I basically told her I pick my career over my family. I'm so stupid. I left her, why am I like this? I'm such a coward, you got the girl you love Jimin, but you can't even take care of her.

I take a walk around the neighborhood with my cap and mask covering my face so no one would recognize me. I walk past a park and I stop to look at the children. They're so tiny and cute, a little girl catches my eye. She has pigtails swishing from side to side as she penguin walks to the slide. She looks so happy, unconsciously  I start walking to her. 

I'm almost there when she falls down while running, I sprint towards her. I help her up and smile "Are you okay?" I ask her and she nods, her eyes teary.  "I'm Jimin, what's you name?" "Yuna, Kim Yuna" she answers. "Well, Yuna do you want Ice Cream?" I ask and her frown instantly turns into a smile. She nods her head violently, I walk over to the Ice Cream guy holding Yuna's hand and I buy her, her favorite flavor. 

"Chocolate please" she pouts and Omg she's the cutest thing in the world. I buy her Ice Cream and send her back to her mom "Thank you" she bows and I bow in return "No problem, your daughter is very sweet" the mom smiles proudly and nods. I bid them goodbye and leave.

Would Y/N smile this way if someone complimented our daughter? obviously. I would too. The thought makes me smile. Maybe having a kid won't be so bad....but I still have to apologize to Y/N.

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