The Teacher | Kellin Quinn A.U.

If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn

I walked back to my house and grumbled curses underneath my breath. I was disgusted with myself to put it into nice terms. I was the cheater. All those times where my parents taught me that it was frowned upon and I did it. I sighed to myself and sat on the bench on the porch. "What am I doing?" I placed my head in my hands and my mom came out and sat beside me. "Everything okay, sweetheart?" I sighed and shook my head. "Mom? Have you ever fucked up so bad that you know it's only gonna get worse in the end?" She frowned. "Is this about Dustin?" I hung my head and mumbled, "You could say that.." I heard her breathing become more shallow and she shook her head. "What happened, Jazmine?" I took a deep breath. Should I tell her? I mean, I never kept anything from her. She's like my bestfriend. How would I even tell her? It's not like I can just say,'I cheated on my boyfriend with my twenty-three year old English teacher.'can I? It's not that easy. Then again, nothing is anymore. It's like the older you get the higher the difficulty on life rises. That's just how it is. "Nothing, Mom. I gotta go. I got some homework to do.." I dismissed it. I stood up and made my way upstairs. "Okay, dinner'll be ready in a minute." I smiled and walked to my room. I hate lying to her. Once I got to my room, I threw my book bag against my dresser and lunged onto my bed. I sighed and wiped my hands over my face. I really didn't need this right now. Kellin made my brain jumble like alphabet soup with that stupid kiss. Okay, we all know it wasn't stupid. Dustin didn't deserve this. He's a really sweet guy. He was just protecting me. The best thing to do would be tell him and talk about it for a while. I was so scared what he'd think of me...what Laura and Grace would think of me. They asked me what happened in the woods countless times throughout the day but I just brushed them off and said I didn't wanna talk about it. I opened my eyes and got a upside down view of my laptop laying on my window seat. "Now or never.." I mumbled, getting up and grabbing it. I sat down on the window seat and clicked on Skype before logging in and scrolling down to his name. The crusor hovered over it as if asking,'Are you sure about this?' I rolled my eyes and clicked it, feeling my anxiety flare up inside me once again. "Hey,babe! You won't believe what just happened!" For a guy moving away from his girlfriend and bestfriend after getting into a fight, he seemed offly chipper. "Oh? What's up?" I asked with fake enthusiasm. He brushed it off anyway and told me. "We aren't moving!" My heart dropped and piles of guilt fell on me. "W-what?" He laughed and smiled brightly at me. "We aren't moving! I didn't get expelled! Turns out Mr. B isn't that bad after all. Jake has detention for and entire month along with custodial services. Can you believe that?!" Dustin then broke out laughing and I followed with a nervous chuckle. "What's up? You okay? You'd normally be laughing as hard as I am right now.." I smiled falsely once again and shook my head. "Nah, i'm fine. I gotta go though. Homework." He nods in understanding but his eyes still show worry. "Okay,...uh...bye, I geuss i'll see you tomorrow. " I nodded and hung up. There was no way I was going to that school tomorrow. All the eyes that are gonna be staring at me is probably gonna give me a fricken panic attack. I shook at the thought and layed down on my bed, snuggling under the covers. I glanced at my phone beside me and frowned. It was time to end this. I sighed and grabbed it, dialing the number on the small scrap of paper from my back pocket. "Hello-"
"Forest, now." I quickly hung up before any interjections were made and slipped back on my shoes. I ran down the stairs and was about to leave before I heard my Mom call my name from behind me. I turned to see both her and Dad, sitting on the carpet with a game of Monopoly set up in front of them. Holy shit, I forgot about family game night! "Guys, i'm just going to go get some milk. I'll be back in a second, okay?" I lied....oh no. I lied. They smiled and nodded. "Okay, sweetie! Just don't be out to long! You don't want to miss your turn. We all know how much your father loves to cheat when you're not looking." Dad rolled his eyes and I giggled. "Okay, be back in a sec!" That smiled faded away right when I shut the door behind me. This was a serious moment. I had to get my point across to him. He has to understand that I don't feel comfortable doing this. Before I knew it, I was in front of Kellin,who held a look of curiosity in his eyes. I don't know what came over me, but I broke down right then and there. He quickly caught me and pushed his glasses up more before they fell off his nose. "Jazmine?! Jazmine, what happened?!" I shook my head and sobbed. "I can't do this, Kellin! Kissing you wasn't right and we both know it! First of all, you're my ficken teacher! Second of all, it's illegal! I don't turn eighteen until two more weeks! This isn't how I want to spend it I can assure you! Sneaking, lying- it just isn't me! Besides, I have a boyfriend! Dustin doesn't deserve this!" I finished my babbling rant with a heavy huff and looked up into his eyes. They held suprise and determination. I knew now that this wasn't over. "Jazmine, listen to me, okay? Kissing you might've not been right timing wise...but it felt right. It felt like it was meant to be. I felt that..and I know for a fact that you felt it too. And yeah i'm your teacher but does that really matter? Fuck the job! If you want me to quit i'd do it for you. Just say the word, Jazmine.." He practically begged. I shook my head and tore my eyes from his, looking at my sneakers.  "I can't ask you to do that, Kellin.." I trailed. What's so special about me?! Nothing, that's what. He shouldn't risk his job, something that he loves, for me. Think about Dustin. Think about Dustin. Think about Dustin.  He smiled a bit and pulled a stray hair from my messy bun and stuck it behind my ear. "Tell me that kiss didn't make you feel anything and i'll leave you alone for good.Tell me it didn't make you feel the way i feel.." I sighed. I knew I couldn't do it. Because, as much as I hate to say it, it did. I shook my head as more tears ran down my cheeks. "I-I....can't..." He smiled and lifted my head up by the chin. Kellin slowly leaned in and I did the same. The kiss became more heated and hungry as the seconds went by and next thung i knew, he held me by my waist.

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"I can't believe that just happened.." I said breathlessly. Well, good news: now I can cross virgin off my bucket list. Major sarcasm there,by the way. We were both on Kellin's bed in his apartment, wrapped in sheets. Kellin laughed and wrapped his arm around me, pulling me closer. "I don't know. I've always had a thing for girls with freckles, it's adorable." I blushed and hid it in his bare chest. "Th-thanks." He smiled and kissed the top of my head. "No problem!" I giggled and he frowned before saying,"You shpuld probably get going. We've been here for a while.." I shot up and searched for my clothes. "Shit! I forgot about family game night!" He laughed and shook his head. "Family what what?" I rolled my eyes playfully. "Family game night. Every Monday my family would have these board games. It's a Ridgeway tradition...and i missed it.." Kellin sighed and stood up, putting his boxers on and walking over to me. "Hey, don't be upset. Traditions are made to be broken, right?" I sighed and shrugged. He wrapped his arms around me and I did the same. "Am I always gonna be this sore because this shit hurts like a bitch." Kellin busted out laughing and kissed my cheek. "Nah, just give it a day or two and it'll go away.." I smiled and gave a breath of relief.