Savage Love >> John Murphy

Chapter 4

I saw my brother leaning over Octavia, I had my knife pressed against my palm, I ran forward about to tackle him but he turned.

He swung his fist at me and then pinned me to the ground, I let out a cry, I wasn't going to go down like this. Against my brother. I wasn't going to die at my brothers hand. I dropped my knife and let the tears fall down my face, sick of all the fighting, sick of this hate inside of me, sick of what was inside of me.

I cried harder; as Lincoln crawled off of me I sat up and sobbed into my hands, "I'm so so so so sorry! I'm the worst sister ever! I didn't mean to hurt you! It's just, I thought they would hurt you! Please forgive me! Please!" I begged while still sobbing, I couldn't see past the tsunami of tears streaming out of my eyes. I felt my brother hold me tight.

After my little episode I stayed with Octavia while he went to find an antidote; I couldn't look her in the eyes, I felt so guilty. While in that cell I did something, something that would be considered a sin, something I would be killed for...I had sex with Skaikru. I know it wasn't the best situation at the time but it took our minds off of everything....that was until the healers congratulated me on my pregnancy.

"Hey, look at me," I heard a soft voice, I looked up and as soon as i met her eyes I looked away. I was scared she'd kill me; "Lia? I don't blame you for what you did," I cried and looked up and she pulled me into a hug, screaming about a monster a few minutes later. "LINCOLN!" I screamed, he was soon emerging from the bushes to carry her, as we ran I could feel the familiar feeling of the morning nausea.

"Linc, I need...I need to stop," I said, he looked behind him to see me lean on a tree holding my stomach. He put Octavia down and I noticed the statue. "Protect her please Lia?" I nodded, not long after he left I vomited. "Ew!" I laughed at the giddiness of the girl.

After about an hour of waiting I saw someone, Nyko. "Nyko?" He approaches and smiled at me, he started healing Octavia.

"How are you feeling?" He asked, referring to the small thing inside me: "I'm well, the sickness is killing me though." He laughed slightly and brought me some water, "Here child, for your child to thrive you must stay hydrated." I smiled and then heard a voice, "One: Who's He? And two: your pregnant?!" I laughed and turned and nodded at the sky girl.

Nyko explained who he was, Octavia then took him captive, I followed not far behind. "Bring Lincoln to the statue and Nyko wont die!" I heard her yell, I started walking back to the statue when I saw something, a reaper, I ran.

The more I ran the closer he got, I could here a loud crowd noise, I looked through the trees to see a large metallic object with the words written high 'Camp Jaha' I kept running. I saw the reaper still following me. I then heard gunshots, I looked behind me to see the reaper dead and as I looked forward I saw Bellamy.

My face clouded with fear as I saw him, I came to a stop not far from him, he raised his gun, but before he could shoot I felt an immense amount of pain in my lower stomach. I screamed out, clutching my stomach, "Help her!" I heard a feminine voice scream, I then felt a familiar set of arms pick me up, "I'm so so sorry John." I whispered, I heard him sigh, he probably hated me, but this child needed a father.

I was put inside a room and afterwards a woman came in, "What's wrong with her Abby??" I heard John ask hurriedly, I've never called him John, "J?" I croaked out, he was immediately at my side, o could feel Abby feeling my lower stomach. I felt her breath hitch, "You're fine." I sat up immediately, I wasn't worried about me I was worried about the baby, "What about the baby?!" I practically screamed at her, I felt Murphy tense behind me, I didn't blame him. I saw Abby smile, "It's fine, you just overworked yourself," Abby eventually left.

"You're pregnant?" I heard the heartbreak in his voice, I looked him in the eye before saying, "It's yours," his eyes widened and he pulled me into a hug, I then felt the tears streaming down my face. "I'm so so sorry, J, I was an outright Bitch." I cried he shook his head and pulled me closer, I felt him laugh slightly, he then kissed my neck.

"You're never leaving my side again. I don't care if your 9 months along, I'm never leaving you again." I laughed and stood up, he took my hand and we walked out. Surprisingly I was brought into a hug by Bellamy. "I'm glad you're back to normal Lia," I laughed when Murphy's hand tightened in my grip, "Same, if only I could get a b-" I turned and ran into the hospital hut and saw a bucket, I vomited. I groaned and stood up, hoping to god no one saw that.

"You're killing me little one." I chuckled and held my stomach, I felt eyes on me. I looked up to see both boys looking at me, Murphy was the first to move forward and speak. "You good baby?" I laughed and nodded, I walked past them grabbing Murphy's hand and walking out.

"We're sneaking out, you're coming with us, I'm not leaving you here by yourself." I nodded and snuck out with him that night.
-----------------------------

As we came to a clearing I saw Abby and a guard, I stood closer to Murphy, "Bring her back," she handed everyone a gun but Murphy and I.

Finn made it known he didn't want Murphy around, I was getting sick of his pessimism.

"Can we even trust her?" As soon as he said that my heart rate picked up, I was scared they'd kill me, I gripped Murphy's hand tighter.

I started feeling dizzy, I hadn't eaten a lot and you could tell I was starting to show. I also hadn't had anything to drink since yesterday with Nyko.

"I-I need to rest." I almost fell down but Murphy caught me, I heard Finn groan in protest, "We have to keep moving," I looked up feeling a familiar wave of dizziness of exhaustion. "I need water or food, I haven't eaten in a while," Murphy's eyes widened and he went rummaging through his pouch.

"Here." He handed me an apple and I smiled at him, I then tried to stand but I felt to dizzy. "I'll carry you." I then heard Finn groan even more, I felt a hand on the back of my shirt and pull me up and push me into a tree. "You can walk! What are you doing? Leading us into a trap?!" I felt the familiar tears, damn pregnancy hormones, I shook my head hurriedly, "Finn stop! She's pregnant!" I heard Murphy yell, Finns eyes widened and he dropped me, "I-I'm sorry..." he looked down, I grabbed his cheek and lifted his face to met my eyes. "I don't blame you," my voice was quiet, but another wave of dizziness washed over me. I looked up at the sky and saw first light.

As we walked I could feel the apple I ate etching it's way up my stomach. We came and I saw a few men, I saw someone I despised...Delano.