I didnt ran away ... I just needes time to think things over... At siguro naman sapat nang isang taon ng katahimikan para harapin uli si noah
Isabel's dad helped me... Nung araw na isinugod ako sa ospital dinala nya ko dito nun after... Isang bahay sa isang secludes na pag mamay ari nila ni mom.
I couldnt thank him enough for looking after me, mom and even the twins... Kayat sobrang saya ko nang malaman kong he really married mom after all
Im seeing Noah again. Not to get back to him... But to simply let him go... At this rate, maaaring masabihan na ko ng selfish, or even worse...
But the truth is... Im not. Lets just say that... Im running away... Kase natatakot ako, na what if sa pagkawala ko, maraming magbabago... Which is not so unbelievable...
The world is changing every minute, every second.
Kasama rin dito ang... Syempre, feelings ng isang tao... As for noah...
He has Summer...
Maya maya pay dumating na sila ni summer. With their hands interwined with one another. I planted as smile on my lips at tumakbo pababa.
For experimental purposes... I kissed him. One last time.
And i guess i was right. Things are over for the two of us
It took me seconds para maibalik yung composure ko. I'd lie kung sasabihin kong... Hindi ako nasasaktan. Its hard, but its the right thing to do... Holding him back would only make things more complicated.
"Im sorry... For everything" and he smiled... Yung mga ngiting kinabaliwan ko sa highschool.... Yung mga ngiting hinding hindi ko maialis sa isip ko...
"So..." I was waiting for him to say something... But he just smiled while holding sam's hand
"Uhm... Congrats sa inyo ni Sam. You made the right choice... On choosing her, so lika na, kain na tayo lalamig na yung pagkain" at inaya ko na sila sa bahay.
I can feel the awkwardness in the air. sobrang tahimik lang namin pagdating sa dining area.
Sobrang tahimik naming kumain, so awkward. Hangang sa nagsalita na si summer.
"Ryll. Ano... Noah and I were not really what you think what we are. I mean, there... Was never an us. So ano, i mean its okay with me kung may something pa rin sayo" nakita ko ang pagbabago sa mukha ni noah.
She shouldnt have said that... Nasabi ko na minsan kay noah yan and i regretted it in the end.
"Ano ka ba. Its uh actually alright with me..." Then she excused herself at naiwan kami ni noah.
"Tara, lets talk" nagpunta kami sa kitchen bitbit yung hugasin. May kasama naman talaga ako dito. Yung kambal... Remember steph and stephen. It just happens na parehas may classes yung dalawa.
"So/so" sabay pa naming sinabi.
"Ikaw na mauna" he said. Kinakabahan rin ako sa tatanungin ko. But it leaves me no choice.
I have the right to know
"Kamusta naman kayo ni sam?" Binuksan ko na yung faucet at sinimulang anlawan yung mga hugasin. Medyo natagalan bago nya ko sinagot .
"Were good." Tumango tango lang ako.
"You love her?" Hindi ko na nagawang lumingon. Pero this time hindi na nya ko sinagot.
"Nakabalik na ata sya. Samahan mo muna..."
"Ryllie" ipinikit ko yung mga mata ko... And i didnt expected tears... But they were there
"No its okay matagal tagal pa naman to"
"Tutulungunan nalang--"
"Just be with her... Sanay nanaman akong naiiwan..." I wanted him to comfort me, embrace me, fill my ears with talks of love... Kung gano sya kamiserable nung nawala ako. Kung gano katagal nyang ipinagdasal na makita ko uli sya. But then... Was i expecting too much?
Nagulat nalang ako nang makaramdam ako ng dalawang kamay sa bewang ko.
"This time hindi ka iniwanan Ryllie, ikaw ang nang iwan... You ran away from me... You didnt gave me another chance. I was in love with you na hindi ako tumigil kakahanap sayo only to find out na... You really dont want to be seen by me. Oo nasaktan ako, and that's love... At oo masaya rin ako kase kung tutuusin... Ikaw rin ang dahilan kung bakit... May chance na ma in love ako sa iba... At ngayon." Tinangal ko na yung kamay Nya sa bewang ko.
"Ano ka ba? Im just kidding, lika na... Nakabalik na ata si sam" feeling ko naman nakaramdam na syang ayaw ko nang pag usapan pa.
Tss... This was supposed to be a proper good bye, pero bakit ang hirap? Bakit ang sakit.
"Uy" sabi ni sam, uh this is awkward...
"Nga pala... Yung kiss kanina, that was nothing, hahahaha and baka paparating na sila Stephen" i saw confusion in their faces.
"Ininvite mo sila?" Pagtatakang tanong ni noah
"Nope they're with me. " as if on cue narinig ko na yung sasakyan ni stephen.
Within minute naka akyatna si stephen, asan nanaman yung kambal nito? Stephe didnt mind my guests alamna kase nya na dadating sila ngayon.
But noah... Nag iba yung expressions nya... It was... It was... As if he was still pained. Pero nang makita ko si sam.
She was holding back her tears.
"You're living with him? Ano sa tingin mo yang ginagawa mo? Alam ba to ng parents mo? My god! May nangyari na ba sa inyo?" Without me knowing i slapped his face.
Wow. Just. Wow.
"Ganun na ba kababa yung tingin mo sa akin Valenzono? Ha? To think that ill be sleeping with him? At ano naman kung oo, ano naman sayo yun? Tutal wala ka na rin naman nang pakealam diba? You already let go of me. Binitawan mo na ko noah. I waited for you, pero nang malaman kong masaya ka na i didnt wanted to bothrr you anymore. And this was supposed to be my one last goodbye as i let you have your own... Happy ending"
BINABASA MO ANG
Noah and other things
Adventure"You can't always have everything... there's always someone who gets hurt at the end... there's no perfect fairy tale, and the only thin you can do is to deal with it."
