chubby // 2jae

02

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Youngjae's stomach growled loudly. He hadn't eaten in a couple days, and it had been a week since the Vlive. The members hadn't noticed yet how little food he had eaten, and the boy couldn't have been more thankful.

Since the Vlive, Youngjae had lost three pounds purely from not eating. The fat on his stomach had flattened, and the boy loved how much thinner he already looked. With the way he was going, he would reach 145 pounds in no time. It wasn't his ideal but the thinner the better.

His black hair sprawled against his pillow as he thought of more ways to lose weight. He had already increased his workout routine, leaving him sore and tired, not to mention hungry, but he embraced the feeling. He snapped out of his thoughts as the leader of his group knocked on the door.

"Yeah?"

"Lunch is ready!"

"I'm not feeling well, I'm going to get some rest and stay in here."

Youngjae could hear the frown in Jaebums voice through the door.

"I've noticed you haven't been eating as much lately."

The younger sucked in a breath.

"I, um. Yeah, I'm just on a new diet."

"Did the manager decide on this? I don't like how little you're eating, Jae."

"I'm fine. You should go eat lunch with the others, Bummie."

"Well... okay, but feel free to join us."

"I might."

Youngjae heard footsteps get softer outside the room, signaling that Jaebum had left. He sighed sadly, missing the meals he used to share with the members of his team. The male could hear them laughing and eating together, Jackson loudly yelling defensively about something involving tigers.

'"I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS A LION OKAY!"'

Footsteps once again sounded down the hallways and Youngjae held his breath as they stopped outside his door.

"I called manager hyung because I was worried about your health... Youngjae you're still on our normal diet."

The younger panicked through the door, unknown to Jaebum outside the room. He knew if he was going to lose weight he had to maintain his hunger.

"Ah, I'm sorry hyung. I haven't been feeling very good lately and I just didn't want to worry you guys. That's all."

"You should of told me Jae, I could've helped you! God, I was really getting  worried about you."

Youngjae faked a happy tone to his voice.

"I'm sorry hyung! I'm okay, you should go back to eating!"

"Come eat with us then. I know you're sick but you still need to eat."

Without warning, Jaebum opened the door and pulled Youngjae up by his hand. The boy tried not to pull away from him, as that would just worry him more. Maybe if I eat one meal, they'll stop worrying and I can stop again.

With this logic in his head, Youngjae agreed to eat with the others.

As soon as he sat down at the table, the food seemed to antagonize him.

Fatass.

"Youngjae, you're eating with us!"

Chubby.

"I missed you Jae! Glad you're here again."

Overweight.

"Do you want some of the seaweed? Jae?"

Ugly.

"Jae!"

"Hm?"

"I said do you want some seaweed."

Mark looked at him worryingly. Youngjae faked a smile and nodded. The older began to shovel different kinds of food on his plate for him, and he panicked.

"Oh, no uh, I'm not that hungry hyung-"

"You haven't eaten much the past couple days, here!"

"Oh, thanks Mark."

Youngjae gulped at the amount of food piled onto his plate. He saw everyone turn to get food for themselves and he lifted up the fork. He grimaced as he stabbed a piece of meat and brought it to his mouth, trying not to turn away and go back to his room.

He looked to his right to see Jaebum smiling and commenting on how good the food was, and they made brief eye contact. Youngjae grinned at him and effortlessly swallowed down the bite. In reality he was about to cry, even though it was just one small piece of meat.

The boy tried to bring up another bite of food to his mouth, but couldn't. He slid his chair out from under the table and wordlessly excused himself, ready to work out in his room.

"Hey! Youngjar, werf you gung?"

"Don't talk with your mouthful, babe."

"Mmph- okay, sorry. Youngjae?"

The mentioned turned around and smiled weakly, facing Jackson. He rubbed his stomach in mock pain, slowing his words down on purpose to seem tired.

"I'm not feeling too well, I'm going to go lay down."

Jackson pouted dramatically, and Youngjae gave a genuine smile.

"I'll see you later, weirdo."

"'Kay, Youngie. Hope you feel better."

Youngjae turned back and went to his room, but not before catching a quick glimpse of his members. Jackson was completely oblivious. Jinyoung was glaring at Yugbam awkwardly flirting.  Jaebum looked worried, concerned for him.

What freaked Youngjae out was Mark.

The vibrant redhead looked like he knew something. His eyes were curious but he wasn't relaxed, he was on the edge of his seat.

The younger brushed it off and tried to concentrate on the sit-ups he was counting, the only words in his mind,

chubby.