Do I love you, do I not?

Oh.

I'm going to write this in Me-form now because I want to be able to have dialogues and stuff. So I'm gonna start saying "I did. " Instead of "Amaia did" etc. 

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We all gather to play a game. The game is that you have to pass around a card with only using your mouths/lips. The "couple" that drops it has to kiss. After a girl is done explaining the game you hear a big sigh on the other side.

- But I sit next to boys! It's unfair, I don't wanna kiss them, Theo complained. 

So the group started moving around making it a pattern, girl, boy, girl, boy etc. I stood up because I was sitting next to Yuki, which meant I had to move next to a guy. Dean looked at me like he read my mind, the seat next to his was empty. We both knew what would happen. But I am really competitive and I did not want to drop the card. I smirked at him and directed my attention to the middle, but I could see in the corner of my eye how he took a good look at me. The game started. The first 4 rounds we didn't drop it, I don't think Dean did want to lose either. But then,

He drops it, quickly grabs it with his hand and places it on his lips again. Almost hoping that no one saw that so he could continue. It was too late, everyone saw and they wanted us to kiss. I grinned, he was cute but was he my type? What was even my type? I took a good look at him. He was cute. He was taller than me even in my shoes and he had black fluffy hair. His eyes had some sort of depth to them and he smelled good. Trust me, that's a big issue with teenage boys, they don't know how to shower. 

Dean doesn't seem like he has the courage to make the move and everyone was basically staring and cheering at this point. I thought to myself "did he not want to kiss me?", "Why did he check me out then?", "Wait, what if he didn't though, what if he thinks I'm weird?". I was shook, cause I had never before even given a thought about guys. Their opinions never mattered to me, I didn't care if they did not like me or anything in that matter. 

I take a breath, almost to big cause people giggled and I just did it. I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his. It was quick and simple. The game continued but something changed in silence. His presence was felt and I couldn't stop looking at him. What did he think? Did he even care? The kiss itself wasn't memorable, it was okay. I mean, how can you even judge a quick peck? Cause that's what it was, a quick peck. 

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After the game was done, and people got bored of seeing everyone kiss/makeout, they started dancing. Yuki smiled at me and I knew it meant "toilet time". Girls do that, we go to the restroom together. 

- What was thaaat? Yuki asked in a flirty tone

- What was what? I try to play dumb but I know that she knows.

- Come on, the room was basically on fire. Do you like him?

I tried to come up with an answer. Mainly for myself but also to answer her. Did I? I didn't know. He was cute and he seemed so nice, but I knew myself. I was going to get bored after two weeks and I would ruin all my chances at happiness. He seemed as husband-material, he was sweet, cute, honest, understanding and caring. I wanted to keep him forever but I knew I couldn't do that if I ever started anything with him.

- Well, he's kinda cute, did he say anything to you? I asked carefully, hoping to not get exposed.

- He is my bro, I promise to find out everything. He is a good guy you know. She told me and smirked. I didn't have the chance to respond before she burst out of the toilet and went to the living room area. The party was taking place in a local that had a "living room area", a kitchen, hallway and the toilet facing the outdoor. I closed the door after me as I followed her to the room. I quickly scanned the room to see where she went, when I noticed Dean looking straight at me. I smiled at him and went outside. And, as I thought, he followed me out.

- Hi. I said short, sweet and with a smile. 

- Hi Amaia. I was shocked that he knew my name. I did know his name too though, he could've heard it when someone called after me. I can't remember how it happened but we made out several times that night and I even told him that I wish I was capable of falling in love. I never tell anyone, especially guys, how my love life is. We kept acting like a couple after that, always together and always holding hands. He made me happy. He was a complete stranger thought, but he did, he made me happy. 

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After the party ended and the majority went home, I was going to crash at Zelia's house. Zelia, Sarah and I. Sarah had too much to drink too, Zelia and I were pretty much sober when we arrived. She had her apartment for herself as her family was on a field trip. When we all had taken off our makeup and gossiping about the night Zelia gave me a suspicious look.

- Dean, huh? 

- Yeah, hahah, you guys noticed? I nervously laugh even though I knew they saw it. Heck everyone at the party saw, they all probably thought we were a couple even though I never met him before. 

- Well, he has a girlfriend, she said as I turn ice blue and almost feel sick. 

- Oh, is all I can say, and all I said. 

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Ouf, so Mr. innocent might not be that innocent after all huh? Well, you're gonna get to know Dean better on the next one