Realize That It's Gone

Chapter Twelve

Warnings: Angst

Word Count: 1963

Author's Note: I hope you enjoy this chapter! :)

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The movie on the TV started to roll through the credits, but I was no longer paying attention; I had lost interest halfway through. It seemed my mind would much rather run through all the possibilities of what Y/N and Josh were doing on their date right now.

The sun was quickly getting lower in the sky, painting it all different shades of pink and orange. Y/N would probably be sitting on her deck and watching it right now, if she was even home. Josh had said that he didn't know how long he was going to be gone when he was leaving and I hadn't gotten a single text from him since then. That was probably a bad sign.

Well, a bad sign for me.

The credits were already halfway over by the time I finally got out of my own head and decided to attend to the TV. I had put on some bad movie that Josh and I had in our collection in hopes that I would find some humor in the terrible acting - something that usually cheered me up - but that hadn't been the case today. With a sigh, I grabbed the remote and shut the movie off.

A car honked outside as I got off the couch and shuffled towards the kitchen to grab a drink. My dishes from dinner were still sitting unwashed in the sink, so I decided to clean those up before Josh came home. He was always getting after me about leaving dishes around the apartment. Not to mention that I wasn't so sure I would be able to stop myself from escalating an argument if he started one.

Keys jingled outside the door just as I grabbed a drink from the fridge. Shortly after, Josh walked inside. He was smiling to himself as he kicked off his shoes and hung up his keys by the door. I stopped my walk back to the living room and instead turned to face him, leaning one hip against the kitchen counter.

"Hey, how are you?" he asked.

"I'm ok. How was your date?"

His smile grew even more, putting that familiar discomfort into the pit of my stomach.

"It was really fun," he nodded. "Y/N is super cool and that was honestly the best first date I've been on in a while."

Of course it was, it was a date with Y/N.

"What did you guys do?"

"Um, I picked her up, then I took her to that milkshake place that I really like and we spent almost ten minutes debating what kind of milkshake we should get," Josh laughed. "And then we just walked along the river for a couple hours talking and stuff. I took her home kinda early because I didn't want to give her parents the wrong impression or anything, you know, since it was a first date."

"Sounds like you nailed it, dude," I said, forcing a smile. It wasn't a lie, Josh had somehow managed to take Y/N on essentially what was her dream first date. It was impressive, considering they hadn't known each other for very long. "Is there going to be a second date anytime soon?"

"I hope so. Y/N said that she might want to go on another date too, but I'm going to give it a couple days before I go asking her out again. You know, see how much we talk and all that."

"That sounds like a good plan."

That also gave me time to talk to Y/N and figure out how she was feeling about all of this.

"Yeah. How was everything here?"

"Great. I just had some pizza and watched a movie, nothing too special."