Second Chances

Chapter 4

Sometimes I don't understand people, how you can care for someone for so long and how the can be your absolute world and number 1 priority and then one day you wake up and none of it means anything. How can you just be so cold to someone? Someone who loved you unconditionally and would do anything for you. It doesn't make sense to me, and I know life doesn't make sense but it just doesn't seem fair. I sighed reading the messages and handed her phone back to her, "I don't understand, why he text you and then you questioned him and he told you to leave him alone?" Like I said people just don't make any sense. "Yeah I don't know." She said, "I know it's fucking shit, and I know I've done it to you and it's happened to me recently as well, so I'm kinda an expert in it which is sad. But he doesn't want you to be with anyone else and it will make him jealous but for whatever reason he doesn't want to be with you either. It's stupid and it's unfair because it makes you believe he wants you and it gets your hopes up but it's so shit. It's unfair and he will realise one day that it's unfair, but you did it with me and you gotta do it with him, you have to move on and you have to block him out and focus on the positives and focus on you and your happiness." I know I should probably take my own advice but right now my focus was on Camila and making sure she was okay. "I know you're right, and it's hard because I hate how cold he is." I laughed because I knew exactly what she was going through, "Camz, I know exactly what you're going through and I hate it as well, and you wish you could see what they're thinking, but you can't and it sucks and it's not fair, but you can only do what you can control." She cuddled up to me once again, "how about we watch a movie?" I felt her nod and I took the remote and put on another Disney movie.

I heard the front door of the apartment open and Camila squirmed, she must have been asleep. Dinah walked into the room with her mouth open ready to speak when she noticed Camila peacefully sleeping. Her mouth closed suddenly and she raised her eyebrows at me, "hey" she whispered quietly enough to not wake up the younger girl. I felt Camila move and groan, "I'm awake, I'm awake." I laughed, "good morning sunshine." Dinah yelled from the kitchen, Camila immediately jumped up and moved to a comfortable distance from me  "Dinah you're home." Dinah walked into the lounge room and sat down, "what's going on?" She asked, "too much" Camila grabbed her phone and handed it to Dinah showing her what she had shown me before. Dinahs facial expression changed instantly when she was reading what was in front of her, she looked concerned then angry, "what the..." she looked at Camila and grabbed her giving her a tight hug "I don't understand." She said shaking her head, "I don't either." Camila said softly, "why text you and then tell you to leave him alone?" I laughed, "I said the exact same thing." Dinah laughed, "it must mean he's stupid then." I nodded in agreement, Camila smiled and it was nice that we were able to cheer her up. "I think we need to have a movie night." Dinah suggested, Camila clapped her hands together like an excited little child. "Disney movies?" She asked and Dinah just laughed, "one day you'll grow up."

We were onto our third Disney movie when I noticed Camila had fallen asleep again, I smiled watching the brunette sleep peacefully. Dinah must have noticed me watching the younger girl, "I know how much you missed her." She whispered, "I really did." "Why didn't you reach out?" That was a hard question. "I don't really know, I can't really explain it, I was happy and in love with Lucy but I still thought about Camila sometimes and I still missed her sometimes, and I knew she was with Shawn and I know nothing could work out whilst all that was going on." Dinah nodded, "I guess that makes sense, I'm glad you guys are back in each other's life's now though. I thought Shawn was a really good guy and all but you and her have such an different important friendship and connection that she doesn't seem to have with anyone else, not even me." I smiled, "I think we came back into each other's lives at just the right time." I certainly know I needed her in my life right now, and I think by the way things were going she needed me as well. "I think you did too, I know only time can heal the both of you but to have each other to lean on and go through together a similar situation, I think it's a good thing." Dinah smiled at me and it was nice to hear coming from her, "I might head to bed, you're welcome to stay if you'd like." I nodded, "thank you, goodnight." Camila was still fast asleep, I made myself comfortable on the couch and closed my eyes.