Dear Mommy,
I feel so weak mommy. I feel like every happy thing that has happened to me just disappeared, like it never even existed in the first place. Those men and their hands mommy. Those cold and rigid hands, and the things they did.
Mommy they raped me. I was riding my bike home and a group of them trapped me. The smell of alcohol was all over them. Their hands went in places where only my future husband should touch.
There were six of them in total. They all trapped me and they all had their "turn" at me. I am so scared. What if they come again. I have no one anymore.
Bella killed herself yesterday and just after that I got raped. Mommy everything is going wrong. I want everything to be normal. I want to be happy but I feel numb. I'm emotionless.
If I killed myself do you think I would be with you mommy. Do you think I could see you. I could meet you and hug you. I would do anything to hug you mommy. I want your hug, actually I need your hug. I need it now and I will always need it.
