Confessions

Confession 16: Field Trip

This day is our field trip day.. And unfortunately he was not on our bus he is being put in the other bus with the grade 7 and he was accompanied by his friend when we came on our first destination I cant see him and another thing is that he wasn't still chatting on our gc so you know we only chat each other on that gc because we only chatting each other on private message when we only want to talk privately when we talk about some serious things but sometimes the reason why were private messaging each other is because we reply on each others my day on messenger no deeper reason and I remember something that happen many months ago he chatted me privately because he wants to inform me that I look like the witch on left 4 dead how annoying right? but makes me smile automatically but right now its weird and I feel that he's avoiding me because our classmate is making an issue between the two of us.. And I dont want that he's acting like that.. And because of that I hate that person who put an issue on us.. When we came on our second destination I finally saw him... And when I look at him.. He also look at my direction and suddenly avoid my eye contact to him at that time... I want to ask him what's the matter but instead of asking him I just go to he's friend and give it a high five since it was asking for a high five when we are on the bus I suddely private message he's friend that accompanies him and ask if my crush is angry at me and suddenly answered immediately my chat and said that my crush is not angry at me and its just that he's wasnt in his mood but I dont know its just that.. I cant believe if his friend is saying the truth.. When we came on greenbelt where we will watch a theater play of ibong adarna.. He's still keep on ignoring me.. And suddenly my tears betrayed me it start falling to my cheeks and Im glad that no one notice it.. What a traitor tears.. But to be honest I dont expect that I will cry once again because of a guy.. Specially when the lights turns off on the theater my tears suddenly start once again to fell down... I dont want this feeling promise.. And I dont expect myself that I will do such a thing just to talk to him wanna know what I did? Simply is that I will treat the three of them, my friend, he's friend which is also my friend and lastly him.. What a silly plan right? And another thing is that.. I want to save my friends for being setup by our classmate who suddenly put an issue between me and my crush and the reason why my crush just suddenly don't talk to me that made my tears fell down.. What a coward right? I hope my plan will work this time.. While were waiting for our tour guide to lead us to where are bus is I chat on our gc and say my plan I eventually ask where they want and his friend said chowking and I agree with it when we finally got in the bus I open my data and the profile of our gc suddenly pop out to remind me that he finally replied wanna know what is his reply? He only reply, "Mang inasal tayooo" and Im glad my plan work this time, but suddenly I get challenged because of it, like you know but for me to be able to talk to him, I will take any risk that may happen.. So I just agree to his suggestion and gladly all of them also agree.. That made me smile though.. When we arrive on our next destination.. In metropolitan.. Destiny just go in my way.. And made us spend that time with their bus number but suddenly only he's friend is the only one who talk to us and spend his time talking to me and to my friend.. I want to ask my crush "what's your problem? Why are you still not talking to me? Did you know that Im getting scared because you act like that? please have mercy on my heart that is slowly breaking..." But suddenly a happening just made me petrified.. He's friend called him and told him to join the three of us... And he join the three of us but he's still not talking to me.. So I just observe the paintings that is on that museum.. And while observing I get shook when someone just tickle me how dare that person just tickle me like that?! And because of that I turn my back to face the person who just tickle me and I saw he's smiling face and I get shook because of that, and I just hit him and say "Kainis ka!" but he just laughed and smiled at me I dont know if he knows the reason why I say that word.. But I think he didn't get my point so that's why he just laughed at me.. At that time I want to say to him that "You know youre so annoying after you didnt talk to me, after you ignore me, after you made me cry! How dare you to tickle me and annoyed me in that way I Hate You!" its just that I cant tell it to him.. I dont have enough strength to confessed to him what Ive been through because of what he did.. But Im glad that he finally talk to me.. Im glad that he finally annoyed me after how many hours I've waited for him.. After that happening the four of us just spend our time together and just have fun when we finally arrived at the Mall of Asia the place where I will treat them.. Me and my friend immediately find the both of them and when we finally saw the both of them we immediately decided to order at mang inasal but unfortunately there are lots of people there, and also our classmate who wants to setup the both of them is there so we decided to order at jollibee while Im ordering our orders he suddenly go at my side and he was followed by are other two friends and say that they will pay for the half of their orders but because I insisted to treat the three of them I just said that.. No need to pay but unfortunately they insisted to pay their other additionals.. Well I cant do anything about that while Im waiting for our orders to be served he suddenly went to my side and didn't say any word and just stared at me and smile I dont know but why does it feels like he dont want to annoy me this time.. Is it just my feeling or my feeling is true but I think Im just assuming well whatever, as long as I know that the both of us were finally okay.... When we suddenly saw McDonald's he just suddenly said that he will treat the three of us a Mcfloat like whoa.. Seriously? But unfortunately the time that was given to us were about to end so he's treat didn't happen but that's okay Im contented that were finally okay.. Im okay that I just suddenly made the both of us talk to each other once again before this field trip ends... To be honest I want to tell him this words "Thank you for making me smile this field trip and this one.. Is the most memorable field trip that happened to me..." but unfortunately I dont have enough strength to chat this words to him or tell this words to him.. I know Im a weak person especially when the topic is him...