My morning starts of with immediate upsetting thoughts because of having to go Through a day again and being awake again I think in the morning of how much I wish I wouldn't have woken up,
I get ready and think how pointless it is to try.
By the time I walk to the bus to I pass by tons of cars and I just think how I should jump in front of them.
I hate everything and everyone including myself .
My days go by so slow and in a blur.
Constant judgement of my peers.
Can't focus in any of my classes.
I plaster so many fake smiles and laughs.
It's so hard to keep up.
Can't do anything right.
Each period goes by so slow.
When my friends make me smile and laugh.
It's time to go home.
Time for the long bus ride of reflecting on how much I hate myself.
I passed by a window and see my reflection and I cry.
I Hate everything about myself.
Dinner time is the skipped meal same with breakfast and lunch.
I try so hard to do my homework but I just can't seem to focus or think.
When it's finally time to rest.
All of my bad memories come in reflecting.
Keeping me up all night long.
I'm wishing so hard I won't wake up.
ButI know I can't leave my family behind.
I keep pretending to be OK just the school day.
