I can't believe I caught you again. I just barely took you back. How could you? You didn't even wait. I'm sure you've been with her the whole time. I'm sure of it.
But here I am, again. I sat in your basement until you came to get me, and I realize how pathetic I was. How I sat there while you walked her to the door and kissed her goodbye. I just sat there and waited. Who even am I? Who does that? I guess at this point, I couldn't feel anything. I was neutral on everything, numb to everything I was feeling.
When you came and grabbed me, my heart had already shriveled up and died. I felt nothing towards you anymore, it was an odd feeling. I didn't even feel hurt, I just absolutely didn't care about anything. I gave you the things I got for your birthday, kissed you, then walked to my bus. Now I'm sitting in class and going over everything, and I'm literally the stupidest girl on the planet. I can't believe I went back.
8:40 AM I keep thinking about you, but it's odd. The only things I can think about you are negative, it's never been this way before. Usually the thought of you haunts me and leaves me craving, like a heroin addict trying to fight the sweats and aches, but not this time. This time I feel nothing towards you. Not love or craving or even hate, just an utter indifference.
10:36 AM It's funny really. How it only takes one single moment to completely change how you view someone. If you had asked me five hours ago what I thought of you, I would have called you my world. Now, well, my momma always told me if you didn't have anything nice to say not to say anything at all. I'm finally free of your curse, I don't feel heavy and sad like I used to. I feel powerful and priceless and bullet proof. I don't know how I got here, I guess I finally reached my limits, but I don't feel the way you always made me feel anymore. I feel free.
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RandomThe only ones awake at three in the morning are the drunk, the lonely, and the in love. It's common that it's all three.
