Depressing Poetry

Puppet of Emotion

This is about my emotionally manipulating ex girlfriend. We're finally 100% done after 3 years of off and on drama. I won't go into much detail, but she never made time for me. Whenever we made plans she'd call them off at the last minute because of work or her parents. Before that I'd had a mental breakdown and she broke up with me during it. We got back together the next day because I was practically in love with her and our relationship was amazing up until that point. After that she changed and whenever I would break up with her, I'd see her at school and she'd flirt and hug and or kiss me, even going as far as to compliment me and say how much she missed me until I got back with her and the cycle would start over. I recently saw her again after breaking all contact with her a few months prior. She's been in my head since and I figured I'd write a poem to make myself feel better. Now that you have some background, enjoy this poem.

I've cried myself to sleep one too many times
My brain blinded by sentences filled with lies
I was barely getting by
So depressed I contemplated suicide
But I didn't want to die
I saw a future with you, one I thought you saw too
Apparently my love wasn't enough for you
I thought I would never be good enough for you
I put you on a pedestal
But you shoved me aside
Plans in advance never stood a chance
I thought you'd at least give me one dance
One chance to prove myself worthy
But you saw me as imaginary
Others warned me, tried to protect me
But I was blinded by you
Now you come back with your twisted ways
You make me want to stay
But I know I can't
If I did I'd never come back to the reality we live in
I'd be in a fantasy world, unwritten
Tell me I'm wrong
Sing your sorrowful song
The one you always play the day I run back
I can't even say your name anymore, for fear it'll invite you to my door
I don't need you although you were the one I did adore
I don't need a selfish whore