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- - - - 𝘙𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘋𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘦
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I was awoken with a wrist full of freshly new cuts and I was used to this since I would always do it since my parents death.
I had to get up for school since I knew my auntie wouldn't let me stay home but if it was Carmen she would.
I had went to brush my teeth and to wash my face since it was greasy.Then I got in the tub to take a nice hot shower to relax my body.
After around 20 minutes of showering I got out and wrapped my body with my towel and went into my room to find a plain outfit to put on.
I had chosen a plain black outfit since that's mostly what I wear is plain boring black.
When I was do I went downstairs to get my backpack and I started my journey off to school.
As I was walking I took it apound myself to go into the corner store and to get some snacks.
I had walked in and greeted the owner then I continued to go in the chips aisle.
I gotten some hot fries,sour cream oinion crackers,ranch sunflower seeds,a snicker,and a big fruit punch Arizona.
I went up to the clurck so her could ring my stuff up."Your total will be $12.50 cents" the man told me.
As I was going to pay him I had seen a per of dark skin hands go on the table with 100 dollars under it.
When I looked up I seen ole dude which was nice and all but I can pay for my own stuff.
"Thank you but I can pay by myself" I told him looking down since I don't like having eye contact with people
When I didn't hear a response I see that he left which made me annoyed of how rude he was.
I got out of the store and I was close to turning the corner till I heard a horn which caused me to look around till I saw Tyquian.
"Getchu short ass in the fucking car jhit" he yelled out me being me I walked to his car since it was hotter than a bitch and I ain't wanna be burnt.
After I got in the car it was filled with silence which I never seem to like when I was people. It made me feel anxious for some reason.
"Next time I pay for your stuff you better not yap about how you could have payed for it"he told me annoyed
"What will you do if I keep yaping" i asked curiously wanting to know what would happen.
"Well for starters I'll just walk out or ignore your dumb ass comment then I'll go on about my day"he told me.
"Oh wowww,that's a bitch ass move"I told him crossing my arms mad at his comment.
"If I'm a bitch then I'm the baddest bitch" he said out loud being retarded as always.
"You ugly for doing that shit bro,I swear on my momm-" i said but stopped myself from saying anything that I would have regretted.
Here we go with the awkward silence again which she still hates.
As Raven looked out the window with one of her arms on her face Tyquian looked over and saw a freshly cut on her wrist.
"Raven..."Tyquian called putting softly to her
"Hmm" Raven replies back to him
"Why do you have multiple cuts on your arm?" He asked her trying to wish that she didn't harm herself.
"I umm..."she tried to come up with a lie buy Tyquian beat her to it.
"You ummm what cause obviously you trying to harm yourself" he yelled at her causing her to flinch.
"I didn't mean to hurt myself but I'm already broken and that's the only way I cope with things" Raven said with tears running down her face.
"People don't care about my wellbeing's let alone if I was to die right now so why start caring now" she continued.
"You do got people who care about you like you mom,dad,auntie,cousin and your best friend" he told her.
Hearing Tyquian speak about her parents made her feel that sadness all over again and she couldn't take it but to open the door and run inside the school.
She had went to Royalty to talk to her even tho she probably wasn't friends with her she still needed her.
"Royalty,c-can we talk please" Raven asked her with pleading eyes as tears fell down her face.
"No I already told you I'm not friends with you so run along" she said shoowing her away.
Seeing her only best friend disclaim her made her feel even worse. She needed a friend at this time but who can she go to.
Raven walked away from her and went in the bleachers that was outside just thinking of where she could go to.
She then remembered about her parents death then she got up and went to their grave to talk to them.
Raven's parents were buried together which was easier to talk to them instead of repeating herself.
"Hey momma hey dad... how y'all been? I've been the same I just I just wish y'all was here to help me.Royalty isn't my friend anymore and I feel so unwanted.Auntie and Carmen still treat me like shit and...I just want to die." She paused to cry.
"I'm just over it all I really am and I try everyday but I just don't fit in. Everyone calls me crazy and I know I'm not crazy I that but I feel broken like a broken record that has been used. I honestly don't see a purpose of living if I'm getting treated the same way. I feel like if I never went to school the day y'all died you guys would have been alive or if I wasn't born everyone would have been happy.EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT AND I CANT DO NOTHING ABOUT IT." She said sobbing.
For the rest of the school day she just stayed at her parents grave yard and just sat there crying silently.
When she looked at her phone she received no calls or text messages as always but it was now 7 pm and the sun was setting.
She got up and started walking home and she didn't rush herself either since she wasn't going to do anything at home except for sleeping and looking at girls who she thought were prettier than her.
As Raven was walking she ate her snacks that she remembered that she had and she looked at the sky.
Raven then heard gun shot which caused her to run as she was running she got shot in the back of her legs once and that caused her to fall to the ground.
She then called 911 and waited silently as ambulance came but that was till she was unconscious.
Hey guys.Lensey here and I wanted y'all opinion on the book so far
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