lunatic

chapter 5

I wake in the morning. I forgot it was Saturday. Mum and dad always have a date day and at night they always cause trouble and normally end up getting chased by batman. I really don't know why they would want that. I'm not scared of him, I'm not scared of anyone. But I just don't get why they would want to get chased by someone. I don't see the joy in it. I get out of bed rubbing my head. I had such a weird dream about a boy. The boy from the bar. I Don't know how I even remember him. Maybe it was his fair skin. His black beautiful hair? His dark pink lips? Maybe his perfect features all together. His beautiful blue eyes? I shake my head. I need to have a shower.

When I get into the water I feel an automatic release. I hadn't realised that I was feeling so stressed. I sigh into the water, letting in fall down my face. I tilt my head to the side and breath deeply. The water start falling into my mouth and I spit it out. I don't like drinking shower water but I love the feeling of it.

After having a long shower i get out and head down the hall to my room. I get dressed in a basic black top and some blue jeans. I do my purple/black makeup and head down the stairs. I don't hear mum and dad. I look around and see a note on the table, they always leave a note. It reads:

Hey princess, as you know it's date night. I've taken your mother out and we won't be back until late tonight. Have a good day and stay inside my little angel

This one is the same as always but just a little different. Lie all of them. I throw it in the bed with a deep sigh. I hate being trapped in this house. I pause. I've never thought that before. I shake my head. Something feels different with me. I need to get out of this house and go calm down. Just for a little walk. I really don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm getting sick and this is what happens when your insane. You start changing in your mental state. The way you think. I wish I knew this feeling better. I wouldn't feel so unsafe.

After an hour or so trying to convince the body guards to take me to the store they finally say yes, after a long call with my father. Probably about not being able to talk to anyone and that I need to be watched at all times. Tom is one of the many that are getting made to go shopping with me. If only daddy knew what happened. I shake me head of those thoughts while getting into the car. Tom smiles at me, i don't return it. He doesn't seem phased though.

When we arrive at the store I head straight for the book store. I don't know why. I don't read. The only book I've read is divergent. And I haven't finished it yet. I don't even know if I will to be honest. I walk around the store for what feels like half an hour when someone touches my shoulder. It's one of daddy's lackeys.

"Miss, I think it's time to go home. Was there anything you wanted" he asked. I'm confused.

"Wait. how long have I been here?" I ask him. He looks down at his watch to calculate it.

"About 2 hours. Was there anything you wanted? You father wanted you home before lunch time" he says and I nod. I know there were a few books I liked but I don't know if I should get them. The man seems to notice my inner war and decides for me.

"You might as well get them. You have nothing better to do for the whole afternoon." he says. I smile and go pick up a few of the books I liked. He follows around slowly behind me. By the time I've picked up to books I liked I'm carrying 5. None of them the same author. Some I don't even know if I will read them. I just like the idea of having them I guess. Making me feel like i do something other than nothing. My list consists of; beautiful creatures, the mortal instruments: city of bones, the hunger games, twilight and lastly the fault in our stars. I don't know if any of them have anything in common or anything about them. I was just interested in them.

After the books are paid for and I'm getting into the car I remember something I hadn't all morning. The bird. I can't believe I forgot it. I don't know how I even forgot. I thought I would have remembered, consistory I was so worried about it last night. I jump into the car.

"Please hurry. I really need to get home" i say and the driver nods. Before I have my seatbelt on the car starts speeding out of the parking lot and down the street. My hearts racing. I hope he's ok. I still don't even have a name for the bird. I can't believe I forgot about him. Tom seems to notice my distress and gives me a worried look.

"What's wrong Luna?" he asks. He shouldn't be talking to me but he's the only sitting in this car with me. He can't get in trouble unless I was to tell on him, which I wouldn't. I shake my head slightly, debating weather I should tell him or not. But I don't see why I shouldn't.

"My bird. He's at home and I don't know if he's still there or not. I'm really worried" i say and try stopping my frantic breathing. I haven't been this upset for a while, other then the news about going to school of course. That was one of my worse breakdowns. Tom nods and knocks on the window. The black window opens slightly and tom says something I nearly missed.

"Step on it. The girl demands we get home now" he says in his professional voice. I thank him slightly.

When we get to the house i forget about the books and run into the house. I know someone will grab the books. I run straight to the rooom and start looking around. The birds gone. I search it for what feels like forever before I see it. The window. It's open. There are feathers everywhere and the sock is laying by it, ripped to shreds. I don't know how that would have happened and i have nothing to explain it. I walk over to the sock and pick some of the shreds up. Hoping I don't find what i think i will. I found it. It's covered in blood. I can't place what happened. People would have been in the house, watching it. They always are. I run down the stairs to one of the people that were here when I wasn't.

"Was someone here? Did you hear anything coming from my room?" I ask. He shakes his head and I feel myself becoming for frantic. I nod and run back to my room. I'm out of breath. Not because I'm not fit, because i can't breath. There is no logical explanation for this. I don't know what happened. I can't breath. I sit down on the floor on the bed. I put my head in my hands and wrap my hands in my hair and try thinking.

For the rest of the day, all night and all of Sunday I was trying to think about what happened. I couldn't stop thinking about the boy from the bar, the bird and school. Was i really ready for school? I couldn't possibly be. I have no answer to what happened to the bird. I read the whole book for school and i couldn't clear my mind. My parents hadn't noticed my odd behavior. They were acting like themselves thought. Absorbed in their love so much that their daughter blends in with the surroundings in the house. The bird didn't returns at all. I don't know if i was waiting for it or if I was just upset that I had lost the closest thing to a friend I had, other then Ella. I stand up from the spot I had been placed in for the last few hours. I walk down stairs and get an apple. I haven't eaten much since Friday night. But I wasn't hungry, I think my body was used to it. I walk to daddy's office, i find him and mum in there.

"I'm going to bed. What time would you like me up for school?" I ask. Interrupting the conversation. I don't like interrupting them but i feel this has some kind of importance. Daddy's sighs and looks to me.

"I don't know. What time do you think?" he snaps. He's in a bad mood. Mum gives him a look and he bows his head.

"Sorry princess. Business is getting hard. I will have the driver take you at 8:30. So your not too early and not too late" he says. I nod and go to walk away but i hear my name get called after me. I walk back to the room and give dad and mum both a kiss on the cheek and walk back to my room. When I get there I shut my window and place the apple on the side table. I only take one bite of it. I won't eat anything more. I get out what I'm going to wear tomorrow and place it on the back of my desk chair. I don't know what schools dress code but at the same time, I don't really care. I will wear whatever the hell I want and if they aren't happy, they can send me home. I get into bed, wearing a hoodie and sweatpants. I have been feeling really cold lately, the winters coming in harsh this year. I start falling into a restless sleep. This i know, because everything goes black before I know it and suddenly I have been transferred into the only place that scares me. My nightmares.