lunatic

chapter 10

Once again, when I wake up the birds gone but it left a few feathers again. I don't know why this bird keeps leaving feathers but it never looks like it's missing any. The amount I found the first time looked like it was enough from the whole bird. I sigh. I need to get out of this house. I wonder how long it's going to be until the world hears about mum. What if they already know? Are people going to treat me different? Or the same? Why did my world have to change?

"Princess. Come down stairs, I have something to tell you" the thing I call my father calls up to me. I sigh. I know he's killed people but I never felt like this about it before. I actually feel disgusted. I unlock my door and walked down the stairs. My father stands awaiting me in the kitchen. He's standing in his business suit.

"I know this is going to be hard on you but I want you to know that I didn't have any choice. She was going to take my baby away from me. I hope you can forgive me. But until then. You will still go to school and act as if nothing happened. When you are ready, we will have a funeral." he says. I want to say so much to him but the words won't leave my mouth. Not out of fear of dying. I just don't have the effort to fight him. I simply nod and go back to my room. I grab out the outfit I had ready for today. It's a black long sleeve top that has see through sleeves. And also black jeans. And for the shows they are purple boots. I get dressed slowly and then start on my makeup. I wear my dark purple/black makeup. I grab my bag and head down stairs. Dads not hear. He's left. There is a packed lunch on the bench but I don't grab it. I'm not that hungry. And if I do get hungry. I will buy food at school.

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The ride feels longer than it did on the first day. I still don't really know how close i live to the school. But I don't really care. When we arrive outside I'm surprised at how empty it looks.

"What time is it?" I ask my driver. He looks down to his phone.

"It's 8.oo. Miss" he says. I nod and get out of the car. I slowly made my way to my locker. Even though yesterday I could hardly remember what the school looked like, I seem to know where I was going. When I get to my locker a few more people have shown up and are at their lockers on their phone. I don't have a phone, so it's surprising that so many people are on there's. There doesn't seem to be anything that would hold the attention of so many people but it does. I sigh and turn to my locker. I unlock it with ease and put my bag inside it. My lockers bare and I don't see myself filling it anytime soon. It doesn't seem like i should make it look nice, seems quite pointless if you ask me.

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The hour passes slowly and by the time the bell goes I'm thankful. Nobody said a word to me all morning and the feeling that comes with that made me feel lonely. I feel like I'm just a freak to the others. I've never really thought I was that abnormal compared to the few people I had met. But now that I'm surrounded by kids my own age and that life there own life's, I looked weird and felt differently than others. I wasn't normal and I didn't fit in. I felt left out and invisible. I was now at my classroom with my pencil case. My other things still were in my desk. Like the teacher said they would be. All the kids were in the class and already sitting down but the teacher wasn't there yet. I took my seat and drifted off into a mindless space where time passed like seconds for minutes and minutes for hours. The place that I went to had taken me to a place where I couldn't feel the pain of the loss of my mother. It made me feel numb and all care I had about everything disappeared. I liked this space and I knew I would be spending a lot of time here.

Not long after I went into this space had the teacher come running into the room. I focused on his heavily breathing and the red colour on his face. I wish i could have more colour in my face,