Nothing but the truth.

6

After that day, I did my very best not to care for Rian. He was amazing and I was so in love with him. I would do anything for him, yet I knew it was all wrong. I was extremely convinced that he would never feel that way about me. It had been a few days without much happening, just me falling deeper and deeper in love with Rian. I knew it was toxic....... but yet I didn't change anything because I liked the feeling so much.

One day during school, Rian approached me at my locker and said,

"Hey I gotta talk to you about something."

He looked extremely serious and it scared me.

"Do you want to talk about it now or later?"

I chose later, just to have something to look forward to later.

I started getting a little nervous in my next class. I wondered if he had seen my cuts or he knew something really bad. I didn't know why I was so nervous, but I was.

At the end of the day, I walked out with Rian and looked down at my feet. He pulled me away, to the side of the building and looked into my eyes. He looked nervous, and I felt nervous too. I had no idea what to expect.

"This is a lot harder to say than I thought...."

Rian said with a half-smile.

"You can tell me anything."

I say, looking down.

"Well... I may or may not have a crush on you."

My eyes snapped up, to look into his. I couldn't believe it. This had to be some sort of a cruel joke, or a dream. There was just no way.

"No way. That's crazy."

I mumbled.

"Well I do."

He says. He gave me another one of his intoxicating, vanilla-musk, spiced hugs. My heart was beating at a million miles an hour. I smiled for the rest of the day. I hadn't felt that happy in an extremely long time.