June 30th, 2019
11:39pm
Dear diary,
I feel so empty. So broken. My heart feels like a million shattered little pieces. I hate it. And I want to hate him. But I can't . Because I love him. Not in love but just love. But my heart physically hurts right now. I wanna take it back. To before I met him. So I wouldn't feel like this right now. It's my fault. I fell for him. I shouldn't have because he wasn't different from the others. But he also was different? He was what I wanted, he's what I want. I want to be with him. All I want is him. But he doesn't want me. He probably wants someone else, someone better. Anyone but me. Because I am fucked up. And I'm not good enough.
