Her Double Destinies (BWWM) *EXPLICIT!!!!!* 18+

Chapter 20

It has been two more weeks and the pregnancy was almost over. Kasha stood in the shower thinking about her life. She couldn't comprehend why all of this was happing to her. her whole life have been one fuck up form the next. She wanted to know what she did to deserve all of this. Too lose her mother, too loose her fathers love, too have all her men cheat on her. She felt powerless. She felt everything in its power can destroy her if it really wanted too.

Kasha took the dove soap bottle out the caddy. She squeezed some on her wash cloth and put the bottle back. She rubbed the cloth together then on her body. She felt powerless in her own life.

"That's because you are powerless and useless. You killed your mother so you deserve everything that is happening to you" a voice in her head told her. Kasha didn't want to listen to the voice of her father in her head. Dean and Xavier helped her channel that out in the beginning of their relationship. At the moment that voice was the only reasonable thing she can understand.

"Worthless" she was worthless. How can she be so broken. How can she become a mother when she was this broken. What if the bodies grows up to not love her because she is so broken. Kasha thought about given the babies up to a more deserving family that is not so broken. Kasha slid to the ground, tears rolling down her face. She couldn't do this she couldn't become a mother, she didn't deserve to become a mother broken like this.

Around her neck Kasha's necklace started to glow. She picked up the necklace looking at it with tear filled eyes. It glowed a bright yellow color. Her heart started too feel, matter of fact her whole body started to feel warm. Like someone was hugging her. She closed her eye embracing the warmth that she faintly recognizes. She felt a light kiss to her temple making her smile. She felt light circular motion on her back making lean into the warmth some more.

"You are loved" she heard a whisper and the warmth was gone. Kasha stood up whipping the tears from her eyes. She opened the shower curtains and reached for the dry off towel on the wall hook. She stepped out the shower and covered herself with the towel. She walked into her room and sat on her bed. She thought about what just happened in the shower. She asked her self multiple time what was that, it felt so familiar. She stayed sitting on her bed thinking for about thirty minutes until her door swung open.

"KAAYYYYY!!! You better be up it-

"Summer why are you yelling? You scared me and the babies." Kasha said startled.

"Oh I'm sorry K, I was just making sure you were up."

"Summer why in the hell are you ye-, oh K your up thank goodness". Natalie said walking in the room.

"Yea and I'm sure the whole neighborhood is up now. Anyways what are yall doing here don't yall have jobs? I mean we all work in the same hospital."

"Oh well ummm" Natalie stuttered.

"Well Nat spit it out" Kasha said.

" Welllllll, the twins felt that you were very sad and they wanted someone to come check up on you so they called Amora, but she was in a meeting so she told us to come. Plus she gave us the rest of the day off with pay. Sorry K I love you but I was not passing that up." Summer said. Kasha chuckled at her best friends honesty.

"Annnddd, we were worried too lets not forget that" Natalie added.

"I'm sure yall were" Kasha chuckled.

"We were K and whyyyy is your eyes really red. Sooo the twins were right, ok Nat emergency snacks go." Natalie ran out the room and headed to the kitchen. She pulled out a big bag of chips from the pantry, cookies and snack cakes. She looked in the freezer and grabbed the gallon of cookies and cream ice cream carton. She placed the snacks on the rolling cart and went to the bar. She grabbed a bottle of wine and two wine glasses. She went to the fridge and grabbed some juice for Kasha. When she was done getting everything ready she pushed the cart to Kasha's room.