u made me happy

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You walk up to your mirror and lift up your shirt. All you could see was bones. Your rib and hip bones were fully on display. It was creepy for some people. Bony, they would call you. But at least they didn't call you fat. You sit on your bed and cry. You haven't eaten properly in 2 days. You just wanted to be skinny around 2 years ago. You tried to lose weight by working out or dieting, so you just stopped eating breakfast. You ate smaller portions of everything, you noticed that you lost a bit of weight so you cut off more food. Leaving you with only having an apple and a glass of water a day. Now you live off of as little as possible. You only have water, no one notices. Your happy with that. Your not happy with yourself though. Your not skinny enough. The voice inside your head just won't stop telling you it's not good enough. Even though you always get called skinny, your just not skinny. You never will be. EVER.

Jaden appears outside your door, looking concerned. You wipe your eyes and force a smile. "C'mon I've been here long enough to realize you aren't in a mood for smiling" He says while walking over to you. He pulls you into a big bear hug. You wrap your arms around him and put your head on his chest. He says nothing just lets you stay there, your tears dampening his shirt.
After a few minutes you pulled away, looking into his eyes. "Talk to me" he says sitting on your couch, patting down beside him, motioning you sit beside him. You sit down, trying to talk, but no words can form out a sentence. "I don't know what to say, sorry" you apologize to Jaden. "You don't have to say anything, I just want you to be happy" he says. "I love you Jaden" you pull him into a hug. "I love you to"

He's walks to the door and turns around. "If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always around, trust me". He says before walking out. Leaving you in your room alone.

"You know, sometimes it's best to be alone" you say climbing into bed, you turn on Netflix and watch "Anne with an E" your favorite show. You fall asleep soon after putting it on.
You wake up a few hours later, and go downstairs for some water. Anthony and Jaden are sitting on the island and talking.

"Dude, it's scary how skinny she is, we both know it" Anthony says. "I know, but she doesn't see it, don't ever mention it to her, you don't want it to upset her" Jaden answers. You walk in and go to the press where the glasses are kept. "upset who?" You say filling up your glass full of water. "No one, Anthony says before walking out. "Is he dodging me?" You ask Jaden. "Don't know". Jaden says walking out the door, following Anthony.