A/n I hope you guys like it so far I've got a few ideas floating around but nothings set in stone and I'm open to suggestions.
I walk into school the next day after a fairly average evening spent helping Maggie out with the babies. She said I ought to get paid but I don't want money, you see. Plus the little girl, Lisa, reminds me of Sam and I love that. I was however thinking of applying to the care home across the street and volunteer my Saturdays helping out the elderly, I've got nothing better to do. I know doing that would make my mother proud!
I am disturbed by my thoughts when I see Graham, I guess you could say we are friends now, we greet each other and walk to class. As we walk into the class I feel Evan glaring at me with a look of if I'm not mistaken, jealousy. Wtf I think, why would he be jealousy? I must be reading people wrong. Later on in class Graham passes me a note I look at him confused, Evan he mouths. I nod and look at the note it reads:
We need to talk, behind the bike sheds at lunch? Alone I.e without Graham
Evan
I scrunch the note up, there's no way I'm meeting him at lunch behind the bike sheds. Is he deliberately trying to irritate me. I brush off Graham's raised eyebrows and get through the dull lesson. I think to myself, this is exactly what I didn't want pointless high school drama unlike some I've grow up and Graham has too. That's what happens when something real and brutal happens you're forced to grow up.
Me and Graham walk out of class together and get lunch together, pretty much spending a lot of time together which confirms rumors about us being an item or whatever! It doesn't matter me and Graham know what we're and that's just mates. At least that's how I feel, I've always been oblivious to passes made at me by boys and I've never fancied any but Evan. Wait did I just admit that, crap! Maybe I should make that obvious to Graham but I decide not to bother I always try to avoid awkward moments which that defiantly would be.
I'm about to leave school through the cold, empty science block, when I feel a arm grab me and pull me.
"Oi- I'm about to say more when I see Evan. I notice straight away a new bruise appearing on his skin. I instantly feel guilty that was because of me I think. I can't help myself I lift my hand up to her face and gently inspect his awful bruise. A spark runs through my hand as I touch his warm skin and quickly pull my arm away.
"I missed you at lunch today!"
"Yeah....." is all I can say. I can't be rude to him after what happened to his face but I don't want to be nice to him either. I just want these girly feelings to fade away but everyday I feel them getting stronger.
"Why'd you do it?" I blurt out.
"Why did you do it?"he replays, aggravating me, why would he answer my question with another question.
" I felt bad for him!" I answer truthfully
" Is that it? You don't fancy him?" When Evan asks this I can see the look of apprehension on his face.
"What do you want me to say?"
"The truth!"
"No, I don't fancy him!" As I say this his facial features immediately relax the corner of his lips curve and his dimples make an appearance.
" Why do you care?"
"No reason!" He says as he ruffles his hand through his hair I notice he has a ring on his thumb, its oddly attractive.
" Well if that's it I better go....."
"Just one thing?" He asks
"Shoot" I say
" you mean to tell me that you saw the school geek being bullied and after a day at the school you risked being punched for him?"
"Yeah!"
"I've never met a hot girl who think of anyone but herself.......there's gotta be something wrong with you!" He says. I blush, did he just call me hot!?
"I know. You've got a boyfriend!" He says covering his face with his hand which is oddly cute.
"No I don't"
He peaks his eye through his fingers covering his face, lookiy hopeful.
" But we're not gonna work out" I say and speed walk out of school.
I run home and collapse on my bed and I can't help but cry. Someone so perfect like Evan doesn't deserve a broken soul like me, I'm too messed up. I need to shut down my feelings for him!
