Its a new day! Evan and I haven't spoken yet, mainly because I've been avoiding him. I just can't bear to look at his face. I know it makes no sense but I can't be with him. I don't deserve that much happiness.... after all my sister won't feel happiness ever again. I focus on other things for instance Graham sent me an intriguing text last night telling me he has some big news.
I see Graham in the lunch hall with his head in a book.
"What is it? I ask eagerly, my outburst jumps Graham which makes him spill his drink down his top.
"Wayyyyyyy" a guy from the popular table teases. I look at him
"Shut the f*** up!" I yell. I trail my eyes down the rest of the table and notice Evan I make awkward eye contact and quickly look away.
"Ooooo make me girly!" Retorts the douch bag. I sit up slightly ready to go over there but Graham gently pushes me back down.
"No don't get yourself beaten up for me again Jen!" Graham says, I look at his shirt.
"Sorry about the top, come on" I say motioning for him to get up and follow me.I get some towels from the girls toilets and rub his top. It's a friendly gesture right? That's what I tell myself but I can't help but feel like this is too intimate.
" I wanted to tell you something and this is as quiet place as any!" Graham says removing my hand and looking into my eyes.
Oh god I think, what's he about to say?
"Jen I don't know how to say this and who to tell and I know I've only known you a little while I feel like we have a connection!"
I nod signaling for him to carry on.
"Well... um..ur Jen, I think I'm gay!"
"Really"
" Aw don't look do disappointed. We would never of worked out, you're way too serious."
I push his arm playfully
"Oi" I look into his eyes and I smirk. " this is great,Graham you know its lucky to know at this age!"
"I'm not lucky......you see I don't know how my foster mum will react!" He says looking worried.
I lift my hands up to the sides of his face and make him look at me. "Graham, your foster mumshoold love you for who you're and if she doesn't she doesn't deserve you!"
"Thanks Jen, it feels good to be honest to someone. But please don't tell anyone yet?"
"Of course, I'm not a gossip. Just remember Maggie has a spare bed and you're always welcome!" At that we walk to class.
