The Re-Awakening

Tobias

*Warning! Spoilers Ahead!****

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I'm not sure how I feel right now. I'm releaved that Cara had found her before it was too late, and boy am I glad that the doctors still know what they're doing, I'm just hoping she pulls through.

The past three days seem to have blurred together. I've been sitting next to her bed stroking her beautiful hand, and head, waiting for her eyes to flutter open. Christina has been bringing me food and sitting in the open chair next to me. We don't talk though, just sit there staring at Tris. 

I haven't seen Zeke since I told him the news. I guess this is my carma for not keeping my promise to him, but I can't think about that now. I just need to focus on Tris, the girl who made my worst fear a reality, the love of my life.

"Hey Four," Christina says. Her voice is all scratched up like mine. "I brought you some breakfast." I look up at her, my hand still locked onto Tris's. She holds two bowls in her hand with plastic spons inside. I quietly thank her and grab the bowl with my free hand. The contents inside the bowl look mushy and squished together, but I quickly eat it anyway.

This has become a routine we do. She brings me food durring every meal and we sit together until she leaves to do whatever she does. It might be to cry, because she doesn't cry around me even though she has lost every single person she cares about. The only time I saw her cry was on that first night.

The first night we came back was the worst. Cara ran up to me as we were walking back into the compound, grabbed my wrist and ran. She didn't tell me anything, just ran. When I saw we were heading for the hospital I let go of her wrist and sprinted in front of her already knowing that something had happened to Tris. I stopped for only a second to ask her which room. She yelled back "B64!" and I didn't stop running. 

I ran fast into the room and stopped at the foot of her bed. There were tubes coming out of her chest, little nubs going into her nose feeding her oxygen. Her skin was sickishly pale, but she was still Tris, and she was alive. I walked up to the front of her bed and starred at her until I couldn't stand anymore. My knees buckled and I fell to the floor. 

Ten minutes later Christina came running in with tears in her eyes. I was still on the floor staring at my hands, too scared to look at Tris thinking this is all just a dream. It's just a dream I will wake up from. Someone put me into my fear lanscape and I don't know it. I wish this was just my fear lanscape. I am in my fear lanscape, but this time, it's real.