✧ Bumps in the road ✧

Ｃｈａｐｔｅｒ ｆｉｆｔｅｅｎ

Louis was out of breath. Harry had told him how neglected he had been feeling over the past few weeks, so that meant an apology, yet the apology was a win for both of them.

Harry was in a haze between consciousness and light sleep. Louis always thought Harry looked gorgeous but especially when there was a slight sweat on his forehead and his lips were kissed raw. Louis sent the boy a weak smile, knowing he wouldn't see it.

The peace and silence was short lived before there door was pushed open abruptly. In the doorway now stood the Wolverhampton boy with a less than impressed look on his face. "Niall and I still aren't speaking!" He huffed sadly.

"Well Li I've been asking for a week now for you to tell me what the fight was about but you won't tell me. I can't help if I don't know." Louis groaned angrily. It was true, since the night the had the twins over Louis had been asking what happened and why Liam was so distraught about it, but he wouldn't mutter a word about the fight. "Plus right now isn't a good time." He added looking down to where him and Harry were so clearly naked only being covered by a thin sheet.

"Please Lou!" Liam asked desperately.

"'ust give us a minute." Louis huffed trying to buy enough time so he could wipe what was left of his 'apology' to Harry.

Liam let out a quiet growl before walking out of the room mumbling incoherent things. Louis slowly ran his hand up and down Harry's arm. "Baby? How 'bout you go shower." He hummed lovingly. Harry slowly began to stir and nodded getting out of the bed rubbing his eyes.

Within five minutes Louis was sitting on the end of Liam's bed watching the younger boys chest slightly heave in tears. "Hey." The oldest said making Liam aware of his presence.

Louis' heart couldn't help but break for the boy. He had always had a soft spot for Liam. Liam was his support system, so Louis was Liam's. "Tell me what happened." Louis said in a more concerned tone trying to find Liam's eyes.

"Niall wants me to move in with him. I said I thought it was too early. He then told me he was just trying to protect me. I told him it was all bullshit but he said I wasn't taking the whole relationship seriously. Then I haven't spoken to him since. 'M just scared lou." The boy hiccuped through his tears, keeping his head down.

Louis was at a loss for words, he truly was. Niall never acted like that, so why was he now. What was niall 'protecting' Liam from. About a million thoughts ran through his head but the one that kept coming back was the one about protecting Liam.

"What's he protecting you from?" Louis asked softly.

"I can't say." Liam cried. Louis just watched as the boys shoulders heaved from how hard he was crying. It hurt Louis more than words could explain to see Liam like this so he quickly huddled the younger boy into a hug hoping it would stop the pain. "From you." Liam finally huffed making sure it was muffled by the way Louis was hugging him.

Louis didn't move after he heard what Liam said. He just comforted Liam trying to keep his own emotions in check because in the moment his emotions weren't important, Liam's were. "I agree it's too early to move in together but maybe you could do something to settle his nerves, show him you are serious." The Doncaster boy said in a comforting tone.

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Within twenty minutes Louis had left Liam's room and was sitting on the front steps, a cigarette hung between his lips as the cool air blew straight through the thin jumper he had on.

He had thought over if he should call Niall or not. It was really unlike Niall to say something like that, so that made him worried. After a few minutes of contemplation he finally put his phone to his ear as it rung.

"I figured I'd get this call eventually." The Irish boy said softly, he sounded scared. Did Louis really make him scared.

"Yeah, what the fook Niall?" Louis said angrily too mad at niall for making Liam so upset to put up with his bullshit. "Why do you think I'm dangerous? Why do you think Liam doesn't take your relationship seriously? Do you not know how heart broken he is?" He added angrily.

"Why do I think you're dangerous?" Niall asked pausing for a moment as if he wanted Louis to think about what he said. "You treat Liam like your personal punching bag and then he just forgives you, when on the inside it's killing him. I don't want to watch that happen. I'm protecting him." Niall yelled through the phone.

Louis had never heard Niall that angry, it made him think he Seriously was dangerous. "Niall, you know I feel bad about it. You know I can't control it." Louis said fighting back sobs.

"Whatever Louis." Niall said before hanging up.

The Doncaster boy sat there for another moment taking a drag from his cigarette and shakily pulling it out again. He just sat there as he let the thoughts run through his mind.

He was dangerous.

He was hurting everyone.

He was a waste of space.

He was useless.

He was an issue.

He was better off dead.

As all the thoughts sunk in he rubbed his eyes before he ran inside and up to the bathroom. He slammed the door shut and locked it as the thoughts kept repeating.

He was dangerous.

He was hurting everyone.

He was a waste of space.

He was useless.

He was an issue.

He was better off dead.

He sunk down beside the toilet letting one of his hands hold the wall keeping him slightly above the seat of the toilet. He then held two fingers down his throat in search for his gag reflex. He finally found it as vomit spilled into the toilet.

After a the slight daze wore off and his eyesight returned to normal he could hear a relentless banging on the door. He could hear slight sobs coming from the person."Lou, baby, please let me in." The all to familiar voice repeated over and over.

Louis waited a while whipping the sweat off his forehead and drying his eyes before standing up and unlocking the door. Harry burst through the door collecting the smaller boy in his arms before he could escape. "What's wrong? I thought you said it wasn't happening again?" He said in a hushed tone as he rubbed small circles on the others back.

"Please Harry. Leave me. I'm dangerous. I don't deserve you. I don't deserve anyone. I'm dangerous." Louis sobbed as he tried to pull away from Harry only to be brought back in.

"Your not dangerous love." Harry said simply slightly confused about where it was all coming from. "I'm not going to leave." He added as he pressed a kiss into his forehead. "Why are you saying all this." Harry asked sadly before pulling away to look into Louis' eyes.

Louis didn't say a word he just blankly stared in front of him until Harry said something else. "How 'bout we have a rest and then we talk about it later?" Harry hummed. Louis nodded.

How did Harry always know how to make him feel better?

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An update for Louis birthday
Have a good Christmas <3