✧ Bumps in the road ✧

Ｃｈａｐｔｅｒ ｔｗｅｎｔｙ ｆｏｕｒ

Cheating rumours between singer, Niall Horan and influencer,suede brooks have been laid to rest after Horan was seen with ex band mate and boyfriend, Liam Payne last night. The pair looked cozy as they happily walked around hand in hand occasionally exchanging quick kisses. Horan even spoke to some paparazzi saying that brooks is just a friend. Whatever truly happened between suede and Niall hasn't seemed to affect his relationship with Liam as they both seemed more than happy with each other.

Louis sighed in relief that morning. He hadn't heard from Liam since he left the house the day prior and to say Louis was scared he was passed out in some alley was an understatement. Harry chuckled as he came up behind Louis and wrapped his arms around the thin boys waist "who ever thought you would be finding headlines helpful." The tallest laughed.

The shorter boy just rolled his eyes sarcastically as he turned around to look at the taller boy. "Oh piss off. You know I was just worried." Louis joked leaning back further into Harry.

"I'm so proud of you, I hope you know that."Harry hummed lovingly to the other. Yet Louis didn't seem to understand what the taller boy was saying. Harry picked up on it from the look on the Doncaster boys face. "You still encouraged Liam to go for Niall even after he said everything about you. You basically forgave him when you didn't need to, I know I haven't." The taller boy explained.

"But the thing is, I understand it. I know it's scary to see me like that. I know it's scary to see me just randomly get mad and start yelling and breaking things at the people, I know. I know if someone threw a glass at you I wouldn't want you staying there when I wasn't there." Louis said truthfully pausing for a moment. The other just sent him a sad look and began to cradle Louis tiny face in his large hands to tell him he couldn't control it and he was perfect. "And don't give me the whole speech because I know it scares you too. It scares me. I hate hurting you, baby. I know when it happens it may not seem like it but I truly do hate hurting you." He added sadly keeping his sad eyes locked with Harry's the whole time.

Harry couldn't find the words to tell Louis just how perfect he was and he didn't care so he just kissed him as deeply as he could. He felt like in that moment maybe he was holding all the pieces of a broken boy together and maybe, just maybe, if he held them there for long enough they would heal. "I love you, darling."
He said softly to the older boy. "I think we need to have a conversation about everything that's happened in the past few days, however. It's been a lot." Harry hummed. He knew the more Louis bottled up the more likely he was to explode.

Louis grimaced at the idea as he tried to back away from Harry. The other picked up that wasn't the conversation he wanted to have but it needed to be had. "We will start with the small stuff, okay?"Harry suggested only to get a concerned nod from Louis. "How was your mum?" He asked sadly.

Louis led Harry over to the couch. He found it too much to stay standing. "They don't even think she is going to make it to Christmas." He huffed laying his head in Harry's lap as tears threatened to leave his eyes. "Harry, I don't know what do. I can't live without my mum." He added beginning to get chocked up.

Harry didn't have a clue what to say. There was nothing that could make that better. Jay was dying and there was nothing Harry could do to make that easier on Louis. "'m sorry lou. I don't know what else to say. I just know you are strong and you can get through this. Right now we just need to be here for your sisters and the twins, keep your mum comfortable and you need to keep talking to me."Harry said soothingly as he rubbed circles into Louis' tiny hip.

Louis quickly swatted Harry's hand away from his hip. "I also think I need to be talking to the girls more. I mean phoebe is being bullied day in and day out, I'm really scared what it's doing to her. Then there is Lottie who is so desperate to be liked by a boy that she is willing to get roofied and forgive the guy." He huffed angrily at the thought of his sisters being hurt.

Harry's hand was now awkwardly hovering over Louis' waist, he knew if he put his hand anywhere near the boy it would only upset him more. "I think she just wants a boyfriend. Remember when we met and you would do anything to impress me." Harry joked trying to lighten the mood. Yet Louis didn't seem impressed by the joke.

"You can talk." He shot back. Then there was a comfortable silence as Louis began to play with the threads on his t-shirt.

"We can't beat around the bush any longer about this, love." Harry sighed softly looking down to the boy in his lap.

The boy looked puzzled as if he was a lost puppy. He always did that stupid thing whenever he wanted to get out of something. Harry was determined not to let him this time. "What do you mean baby?" Louis said as if he was completely oblivious.

Harry softly lowered his hand onto Louis' hip only for him to quickly cringe away. "I mean that." Harry said sadly. "You have been purging and acting as if it was nothing. I keep finding you in the bathroom, in tears, body checking. You barely eat.You won't let me touch you anymore. Is the body dissmorphia coming back?" Harry asked his voice filled with concern and sadness.

Louis didn't say a word. He just threw his arm over his face and began to sob into it. Harry knew how uncomfortable this conversation was and how upset it was making him but it had to be had. It wasn't like this was the first time he had this conversation with the blue eyed boy. He also knew, unfortunately, it wouldn't be the last. "Please Lou, I can't help if you won't talk to me." Harry said softly stroking the boys hair.

Louis' finally swept the tears of his face and sat up to look at Harry. His once ocean blue eyes now a foggy grey. "I don't know what to tell you! It's hurting me as well! I would love to just get rid of it! Like all shit that fucks me up! I'd love to just get rid of all of it but I can't. Don't you understand that? My eating disorder is just like my borderline personality, it's in my mind, I can't control it." He growled angrily as he began pushing his hands against Harry in an angry way.

"Louis, of course I understand that! I just want to help." Harry sighed. Knowing there was no point in getting angry when Louis was going into this state.

"I just think I need to go for a drive." Louis huffed as he got up. He just stood there for a moment. A dizzy spell. It had been awhile since Harry had seen him have one of them. After regaining his strength he walked to the door.

The taller boy knew that there was no point in stopping him. He was best to just let him go. "Please be safe, darling." He called before Louis slammed the door. Hopefully he wouldn't do anything dumb.

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Special post for Valentine's Day ; )
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