he showed up a little over a hour later. you just got done crying, and fighting back tears was harder than ever now that he was at your door. you send payton to get it because you don't have the courage to stand up to him yourself. you walk to the end of the staircase where you can see and hear them, buh they can't see you. "why did you come. there's no use" you hear payton tell him. "i want her. i've only ever wanted her. and you know that." he said .. he's sounded like he had been crying too. "well too late for that huh?.." payton replied... you think to yourself .. was payton deliberately trying to push anthony away from me .. i mean he is his bestfriend and he called me to tell me that he was cheating .. why would he do that unless that was his goal. "please payton, just let me talk to her. i need to see her. please. i love her." anthony says as a tear falls down his cheek. "no sorry. bye." payton says but before he closes the door in his face you get up and walk to the door. you look him in the eyes and you both just maintain a stare. he reached out toward your hand to grab it and you step backwards. "i'm sorry so sorry baby.." he lets out as tears stream down his face. "don't call me that." you say holding your breath to make sure you don't cry. it's not really
helping that much. "can we just sit down... alone. and talk about this." he says as he eyeballs payton. "no lies." you say as you open the door for him to enter. y'all walk up the steps into your room closing and locking the door. you sit on the bed and he sits beside you .. a little too close for comfort at the moment. "look, i understand it looked bad, and honestly it was. i'm taking it. i'm not lying it was all my fault. i know i did wrong. and if i could take it back i would over anything. i don't know what was going through my head .. she crying and then one thing led to another. if i'm being honest i thought about you the whole time and i understand that it doesn't matter because it can't change what happened. and i understand that you probably hate me. but baby, i can not lose you. you are the love of my life, and the only person that i want. i'm in love with you for Gods sake.. i want to mary you, i want kids and i want to grow old with you. i want to be the old couple sitting on the porch swing set watching the sunset go down. holding hands. and loving each other unconditionally. i messed up. but i promise. i will never do it again. i won't even leave the house without you if you don't want me to. i will never leave your side again if that's what it takes. but i need you to live." he says. by now his hands are gripping yours. and your crying. you wrap your arms around him. you can hear him crying. "here's my problem. i love you more than anything. and i can't live without you. i can't do it. i'm giving you another chance. but i swear to god. no more after this. i will just have to find some other way to live. if it's possible. no more. this is the last time." you say ,,
you're both laying down now. holding each other and not letting go. "i love you." he whispers in your ear. and then kisses you. "i love you." you reply... you hear a knock at the door. it's payton. "what the actual fuck.?!" he yells as he barges in.
