i'm incredibly touch starved
but when someone touches me
i practically cry and She takes over.
the thoughts are really strong
and gross but most find it hot,
i wish they knew how fucked up i am.
everytime i go to touch everything
hurts and i breakdown.
it's hard to breathe and
tears run down my face
as i struggle to catch my breath.
what happened?
this hasn't happened before.
guilt, shame, disgust,
and maybe even anger
fill my head and body.
my body goes numb and
i'm forced to quit.
my body and brain
don't seem to be reacting to
this as it once did.
- how do i expect someone to touch me if i can't even touch myself without feeling like this?
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