Helpless: A Crankiplier fanfic

Addicted

It was 9pm and Alex was cooking diner, I had talked to Amy earlier and she said Mark wanted to talk to me. At the time I just couldn't. He would have just apologized and I don't really want to hear him say sorry. It would hurt too much.

TIME SKIP:

I had been staying Alex's for two weeks by now. I just didn't want to see Mark. Even if we didn't film a video together I am still his editor, or not I don't really know. I had watched a few of his videos and he was happy. He seemed like he didn't care I wasn't there or that we weren't talking. 

Though all of my viewers were worried I didn't post anything except for one tweet. I basically just said I'm fine and would be back soon. The only person I had talked to was Amy but that was only twice just to let her know I was okay.

I was more depressed than ever, though being here made it better. Alex distracted me and basically let me do whatever I wanted. If I would ask for alcohol he would let me drink. If I wanted to have sex we would, and if I asked if I could get high he would let me.

He was really nice and helped pay my rent while I wasn't there. He had a lot of money anyway so I doubt he cared. I hated using him but in a way we got what we both wanted. He wanted me and I wanted a distraction. He knew I was using him but I guess he doesn't mind it.

Though I am very grateful for Alex. He has helped, well tried to help, and he's been so caring. 

Later that night I got a text from him saying he would be home in 20 minutes and that we were having guests. I asked who, and he said just a few friends of his.

I got up and made myself look decent. I changed my shirt and put on a hoodie with space all over it.

Once he got back he had two other guys with him. Alex came up to me and gave me a hug and kissed me. When he pulled away away I saw he was smirking.

Me: What?

Alex: I have surprise for you. It'll be fun.

He then turned to face his friends.

Alex: This is Tom,

Tom had shaggy blonde hair and had brown eyes, he was average height,

Alex: And this Max.

Max had auburn hair and was tall, his eyes were a pretty mix of hazel and green. It actually looked really cool.

Tom: Hey nice to meet you. Alex's said a lot about you.

He smiled and I said hi then we sat down on the couches and chatted. After a bit Alex turned to me and said, 

Alex: Ready for your surprise?

I had forgot about that.

Me: Sure what is it?

Alex reached into his pocket and pulled out a little baggie with white powder in it. 

Me: Is that.. cocaine?

Alex: Come on babe, it'll be fun and I know the person who gave it to me so we'll be fine.

I had only drank and smoked weed nothing else. I do have friends who do lsd and shrooms on occasion, but nothing like this.

Then the voice in my head came through. 'Dot it. You have nothing better to do. It'll make it all go away.'

After a few seconds I just nodded my head and Alex smiled. He poured some on the table and then he got Max to roll up a dollar. 

Max and Tom did their own lines saying they were experienced and had done this before. Alex and I shared a line and just after a minute of snorting it I started to feel it come on. It felt so good.