🦋☁️Bulimia☁️🦋

BaTHrOomNIgHTs☁️

A/N: Before I write this I just want to say your mental heath is very important and if you ever need someone to talk to call 1-800-273-8255. I'm warning everyone before they read this, this book is on a very serious topic that people suffer with and this book contains sensitive topics.
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The rain slammed against the thin window as I hovered over the toliet, teardrops running down my face mimicking the raindrops on the window.

I took my two fingers and pushed it down my throat making me gag. I continued until I threw up the dinner I stuffed down my throat in front of my mom making sure she didn't see anything suspicious about me. As I flushed the toliet I covered my ears, watching how my tears dropped into the toliet as it flushed.

Flushed away me.

I walked my sore limped body to the mirror. My face looked pale and sunken in, bags under my eyes from sleepless nights, sleepless nights like tonight.
My swollen tearful pained eyes moved down to my body, I looked at my body and gagged.

"Fucking lose weight!" I yelled hitting the glass that won't stop staring at me. "Y-you disgusts me pig!, why would you eat that food when you look- WHEN YOU LOOK LIKE THIS!" I spat again grabbing my pale skin on my face and squeezing it.

"Tae?" My mother's voice spoke from the other side of the thin door causing me to quickly wipe my tears furiously before looking at the mirror one more time and shaking my sore head at myself.

I opened the door to see my mom standing there with a concerned look on her face. "Tae bear are you okay?"

"Oh- I was just getting ready for bed, why mom" I asked looking down.

"I thought I heard yelling,
Um anyways g-goodnight" She mumbled before pressing a small kiss on my forehead and walking out the door.

I went to bed with a sick stomach and a sad head. As much as I tried to sleep it wouldn't work. Time slowly started to fly by.

                             1:30am

                            

                           3:30am

                           4:30am

                         5:00am

                         6:00am

    

                         7:52am

                    *BEEP BEEP BEEP
                     BEEP BEEP BEEP

I sat up with a heavy head groaning at the pain. Another sleepless night.

I mopped all the way to my brown dresser that was falling apart and opened it.

I pulled out a brown oversize plaid button up shirt along with baggy pants that match it.

The worse part is changing having to see my body as I put my clothes on.

I removed my old clothes, cold air needles hitting my back running all over my fragile body. As I slipped my new clothes on I felt warm again, but still sick to my stomach and heavy in my head.

Slipping on my shoes and grabbing my heavy backpack I walked out my dull room.
I walked down the unsteady stairs slowly making sure not to wake my mother. Each step I took was another creeping noise.

On my way out the door I grabbed my umbrella with holes in it and stepped out side and put it up.

I walked down the narrow side walk. Ignoring the coldness engulfing my body.

I walked with my head down until I realized I was at school.

A place. Just another place of hell and torture.

"Hey Hyung!" I looked over to see one of my friends running over to me very fast. my heart slowly started to feel warm, Jungkook has been my crush for the longest I started liking him in 5th grade he is also my best friend and is always there when I need him and I'm always there for him and all my hyungs as well, my hyungs and my mom always made me instantly feel better escaping reality, he slowly reached me. "Come on we are all sitting in Jin hyungs car he as the heat on, let's go"

I felt to sick to run so I slowly walked behind Jungkook who was getting ready to run before he stopped looking back at me. "Come on"

"Oh I hurt my knee last night so I can't run" I sighed looking down.

He squatted down waiting for me to get in his back.
"Fine" I said hesitantly getting on his back.

He ran all the way to the car with me on his back holding on tight afraid of falling.

When we reached the car the door swung open and we immediately jumped in.

In the car sat my hyungs Joon, Jin (they're dating), Yoongi, Jimin, Hoseok, and Jungkook but he is the youngest so he isn't my hyung I'm his. We've all known each other since we were infants, our parents were close and still are very close making us close as well, we were now in our last year of high school.

The heat of the car swarmed around my body making me wanna instantly to fall asleep and reload since I haven't had time to.

"Tae, you can sleep if you want" Jin said eyeing me.
He is the only person I ever told about my depression and bulimia so he understands everything like my sleepless nights and mental health. I sometimes go to his house just to have his company. I hardly see my mom since she works so hard to keep a roof over our head.

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