🦋☁️Bulimia☁️🦋

COnFeSSiOns🥳💔

"So what the hell is going on with all of you guys?" Jin asked sitting in front of all of us who sat on the bed. "First we were all brothers then all of a sudden everyone fucking each other"

"No, Well yes, but I know me and Tae have some things going on right now I don't necessarily know what but we do." Jungkook said grabbing my hand and looking down.

"We will get back to that later, now you three, explain" Jin said painted at Jimin, Hoseok, and Yoongi.

"Well we all kinda have things for each other so we are in a polyamory relationship." Jimin said mocking Jungkooks action grabbing Hobi's and Yoongi's hands.

"Well I'm pretty sure you understand that we all love you guys, you could've told us this earlier we wouldn't judge you because you guys are our brothers." Namjoon said finally speaking.

"Now back to Jungkook and Tae, So you guys aren't in a relationship but you guys are having sex?" Jin asked

"Yes" Jungkook said shaking his head.

"So when will you guys put a label on your relationship because right now you guys are just friends with benefits." Hoseok said adding in.

I knew Jungkook didn't want to be in a relationship yet with anyone because he wasn't ready but it kinda hurt being labeled as 'friends with benefits'.

"Guys I don't want to pressure anyone to be in a relationship" I said with my head low still holding Jungkooks hand. He squeezed my hand for support.

"So your okay with basically okay with giving your body to him whenever you guys have sexual need and then just go on about your day like nothing happened" Yoongi said twisting his face. "Do you guys even have feeling for each other.

YES.

"I mean not-"Jungkook was about to talk but I cut him off not wanting to hear what he was going to say.

"We should talk about this later I'm tired" I said getting up walking into Jungkooks spare room closing and locking the door. I knew he was gonna say 'not really'.

I laid down and curled up into a ball thinking about all my flaws. I got up and walked into the rooms bathroom.

I looked at my face I looked even more pale and sick then before. My eyes slowly scanned over my bruised hand.

I suddenly felt the need to eat something making me angry.

'You aren't hungry, you aren't hungry, you aren't hungry' I repeat in my head shaking my head physically.

"No, no, no , no!, YOUR NOT FUCKING HUNGRY, NO!" I yelled losing myself.

I ran out the bathroom and hit the lamp on the night stand before going back to the mirror and scratching my face, squeezing my cheek violently.

I continued to blank out and scream, fuss, and cry.

***

Its been hours since I left the room. My Jungkook appeared at the door a few time asking if 'I'm okay' same with my hyungs but I just ignored them and stayed quiet.

"I.hate.me" I said rolling over to my stomach.

I started crying out of no where feeling more irritated than before. I sat up and walked to the door and held the handle, I twisted it as another tear dropped. And then I opened the door.

"Tae thank you for coming out, you've in there for so long." Jungkook said standing on the other side of the door with read puffy eyes.

He engulfed me into a hug. "Please don't do this again"

All I could do is stand there and be quiet, I didn't want to talk, I could hardly feel any emotions.

"Sorry" was all I muttered and walked pass him with no emotion.

When I walked into the living room the time read 2:31am I rolled my eyes and kept walking to the kitchen. I grabbed the bag of chips and cookies and made my way back up stairs passing Jungkook again.

He tried following me in the room but I slammed the door before he could, I could hear him whimper from the other side but I didn't really care at the moment.

I sat down on the bed and quickly opened the chips and scarfed they down feeling all my hunger build up I didn't think about my pain to look skinny. I soon opened the cookies and did the same.

I stop mid way of eating and started gagging myself out of no where feeling no control of myself I felt 'nothing' I started throwing up all over myself and the floor and bed. All the chips and cookies coming back up.

'You aren't hungry' was all I could think as I gagged myself.

'No More Food For You, YOU ARE TOO FAT FOR FOOD.'