2021
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Everything is still falling apart, everything is scattering apart and I'm falling.
Because of you, I’m ruined. I wanna stop, I don’t want you anymore but I can’t do it.
You do this to me. All of the things you said are like a mask. It hides the truth and rips me apart. It pierces through me, and I’m going crazy, I hate this, please, please take it all away, take it all back, I hate you. Really hate you.
But still you’re my everything
I need you. Why! Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone.
Why do I keep needing you when I know I’ll get hurt?
You’re still beautiful, gorgeous, pretty and so on.
At this point, I’m just a fool, whatever I do, I can’t help it. It's you.
It always be you, my feelings my heart its been you.
And I hate it.
But the sky is blue . . . . The sky is blue and the sun is shining. My tears are even more noticeable.
Why is it you?
Why did it have to be you?
Why can’t I leave you?
I can’t ever go back to you.
Never.
My bed smells like you, my clothes, even the road that we use to walk on.
But why did you have to go far away?
I can never get used to you not being here with me.
I feel like something is always missing I just wanted to be together with you.
Always wanted that.
Today I felt the sadness of not able to see you and I'm still in my feelings as time passes by.
Even if I feel insecure, I believe that my heart will not leave you. Not ever.
My heart will reach past beyond the wind, we will always be under the same sky.
Everything was for you.
Everything is alright.
Even if there is no answer.
Everything is inside your smile.
The truth is even if we are apart, our hearts are connected to each other. Forever with you, I'm still a fool.
In my dreams I'm embracing you always, kising you and loving you like I never did.
Under the sun it's just the two of us.
Again I feel lonely. I want to see you.
With distance my heart opens more, It feels unbearable when I hear your rumor
I become more frustrated when time passes.
Even if we are far away we are looking at the same sky even if something happens.
If you are here I am not afraid anymore
I believe in a different world our love will lit for eternity. It will always stay beautiful as it was.
If a day or two go by, I'm still here, even if a year or more go by, I don’t think I could leave you.
Because of you, I cry for a long time
There’s only hate left in my heart
Only the words that I couldn’t say
“Where are you?” are left.
Still, I don’t know if I should forget you and go on.
No matter how much I hate you, all alone I swallow down the tears that were cried in the rain.
“Don’t leave like this”
The words I said again by myself
Although you can't hear me.
Everybody said I would forget you and you would too but I can't even though I try to hate you and dislike you and resent you
I miss you even more.
I gave you the gift of my love and you tried to give me a heartbreak.
Were you such a person?
How could you be so heartless?
All are love was a lie?
I didn't not know you would be like this to me how could I not know.
My heart is something you think you know but really don’t.
I apologize for everything and I will forgive you for everything.
Just because we messed up and argued days after days I would always forgive you because I love you, even though I hate you.
You know that my temper is a bit quick to rise and that I am someone with a small heart but
I want to fix everything.
Honestly, how well off do you think that you are?
You really, completely don’t understand my feelings and give me pain.
It’s okay if you are late. It’s okay if you are a little late. Just promise that you will come back to me. Please come back it's been 5 years.
Come back.
I love you, even though it hurts.
I love you, even though I hate you.
