|2023|
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If I can smile once more, It will be because you might have come back.
I feel like I could die . . . . the reason why I drink is because of this truly foolish love.
Wow right?
When I think of you, tears flow down my cheeks because of the happy memories we ever made . . . but don’t be happy without me so that my heart that still waits for you won’t hurt.
It hurts because I love you, it’s sad because I love you.
Though I’m struggling like a fool, I can wait for you.
I’m happy because I love you, I smile because I love you.
I am waiting for you to come back every day.
Because I love you
Some day, even if everything gets erased without promise, the only thing that will remain is love because I’m so used to you.
I can’t erase you truth is I can’t live without you but I still hope you shed tears because you can’t forget me.
Just know your not alone.
There are several layers of meaning to your words.
I can’t meet you even if I want to, why because it will all come to an end and I wanna know everything about you again.
The more time flows, the more it deepens I’m between your past and future right now.
There's no ending… you’re my heartbeat. No matter what, rain falls. No matter what, darkness erases. The hand of the clock that should be frozen is now advancing, step by step, like moving on.
If only I could rewind time and start over so everything can return to the past in seconds and find a reason for living in the present.
And I know this is my destiny.
You know that I can’t show my weakness. I’m afraid, pathetic I’m so afraid.
I still want, need you.
Maybe back then if I had just a little more courage and stood before you . . . Would everything be different now?
Did I mention I still want you?
And it all started with your gummy smile and that first sentences you said to me "Im Jennie! Kim Jennie I live right next to you, Which is totally cool! Im sorry I'm always like this you can blame it on Jisoo my cousin she won't give me tea because she's broke so she can only afford coffee, And I'm not going to buy tea by yeah . . . im sorry if this is awkward can you help us? . . . . wait where are my manners!? Gosh my parents will be very disappointed in me. What's your name?"
I know now that even when the darkness ends you were my morning.
You woke me up.
All of the sadness and scars became an old memory.
So long goodbye to my hope with no promise.
Under the sun forever just the two of us it's going to be alright since we are connected always.
I can never take off this mask because, within this mask, I am not the person that you know I'm not the same I ever was.
2024
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My heart use to beat for you but now I think it's really time to move on but just know I use to love you Jennie Kim. And thanks to someone I meet I think she's going to be the new you.
The end
