|2020|
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You said I was the strongest out there, you said you loved me like no other human being. You said your life was perfect with me, that our life was perfect. Yet I believed you and still to this day I still believe you.
Where did all those days go? All those years well spent together. Where did all those memories go? Days with out you seem like years to me. I can still feel you. I can feel you beside me at night I can still picture us cuddling, telling stories about our lifes.
I can still hear you taking about our future. About a future you made me imagine, a future you made think would be real.
Time passed quickly when we where together, when you giggled at my jokes, when you kissed me just because you could or when you held my hand for protection.
There were times when you dragged me and made me buy you clothes for fun but I didn't protest because I loved you and because I loved you I would do anything stupid just for you.
Then after a few years something happened. Things started to change for you. Days passed and you'd weakly said hello, and I predicted our end would come and I wanted to change that.
You have no expression when I'll tell a light joke anymore, I started getting trapped in a sad feeling, I couldnt escape and I was breaking down at the words “I’m sorry”
What did I do?
My heart would stop at this cold love, my heart was breaking into small pieces.
My breath would stop at your sick love, my breath would slowly die day by day. Your eyes were letting go of our love, your arms were cold even when I was holding you.
Tears begin hiding behind my smile, they were falling as if they’ve waited for it.
In the corner of my memory, I can still picture us cuddling. I remember the moment when I looked up to you, when I yearned for you. When I touched you with my fingers. It felt so nice, always nice.
I didn’t know your significance back then but I was content by just looking at you. Though we were putting an end to our relationship, I didn't want you to feel sorry for me.
I knew we would get to meet again no matter what form.
I remember back then when I met you that
I had completely forgotten how to breath.
The awkwardness we shared was only for a moment, when i touched you. Even though you were gone without any repulsion I accepted you. Without you there was nothing. welcome the morning together.
I didn't want you to let go of my hand forever, I didn't want to let go of youeither.
I remember back then when we laughed, we cried together those were the days with you, those moments are now in my memories. Memories that kill me, memories I wished I never built up.
I remember back then, When I was fed up and lost. Back then when I fell into a pit of despair even when you pushed me away, Even when I resented meeting you. I was firmly by your side.
You didn’t have to say anything cause in the end I knew something was coming.
