Its been a while since I wrote anything to you... my tears falling, I just cant help my self to cried..
there were hurt feeling .. stabbing my chest.. I'm in pain. Thought that you're my safe place when I feel down, I can come and see you.. visiting a place never exist that I keep in my heart.. hide it deep so no one can find you and take you away from me...
but tonight.. I'm tired.. feel hopeless... help me! I need you!
I call out for him.. My magic pills. My drug to numb my pain...
Then I can feel he hug me from my back... I feel his breath at my neck.. its warm.. its feel good.. I can smell him.. he smell so good.. he kiss my neck.. he kiss my hair.. grab my shoulder and turn me around facing him.. he looks into my eyes.. I looked up and stared to his beautiful eyes.. he is so handsome.. he smiled
and he said..
I love you! I always will.. I can't do much for you.. but loving you. Don't give up lover.. and he hug me again.. I feel love..slowly.. its like he sucking out all the pain...and everything in me start to felt better... I'm tired and fall asleep in his arm...
Thank you James...
The next day when I woke up.. I Smiled and saw his image in my mind.. I saw he smiled back to me too. I went to bathroom and here we go again.. same shit different day... I'm facing reality again!
P/S: he is my imaginary lover.. when I can't talk to anyone about how I feel.. I'll talk to him..
I miss you again...
