Poems From A Girl Who Wishes

HER..:

At any time I could be made a fool
I want to trust you won't be a tool
But my feelings take over and my mind kills me
You don't want a dead shell, I think we can agree
I'm sitting here making a plea

Don't ask how I'm feeling when you know you'll get mad
Sometimes when I'm looking at you all I can see is my dad
And how he left me feeling so empty and hurt inside
You say you're not angry, but I can tell when it's implied
It's like the person I knew is going under a landslide

I don't want to apologize for when I'm feeling blue
So when your curiosity takes over I bid you ado
You won't shake, you stay and ask so many questions
I can feel myself building up all this tension
Finally feeling safe, in your web, I can mention
All these feelings that have me stressin

"Babe these hoes are making me scared, I've seen what they do, I see what they are, I see what they heart, and the messages that they've send your way"

"Oh baby they don't matter I'll keep them at bay"

"But I've seen the messages you've sent them too, I've seen the photos, I've caught you calling other girls beautiful. But  'baby they don't matter' is really all you can say?"

Opening up you strike with your words
"These things don't matter their irrelevant"
Man I feel so out of my element
You make yourself sound so eloquent
When your putting me down I bloat up like an elephant
These are things I feel should stay inside
Never again to see the day of light until I'm calcified
My body's on shut down, there's a whole ass genocide

I know what I feel can be 'unjustified
But I can't get my mind to stop being horrified
And when you deflect I'm cast aside
I honestly just need someone to which I can confide
Sadly you're not that person I had to learn
So I'll sit here silently letting my stomach churn