Along Parallel Lines

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October 05, 2019 Saturday

R E E S E

It's crazy to think after these days that passed, after the events that happened, I would eventually come to my senses just now. My realization hits me in the wrong time but I guess, there's no right timing to break someone's heart or if it does, maybe because you intended to do it. You expected it to happen.

At hindi ko naman ine-expect na mangyayari 'to. He did hurt me before pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun na gaganti ako sa kanya.

As we are walking side by side quietly, I couldn't help but wonder if this is what we are really destined to be. To hurt each other. Maybe, meant talaga na itago ko na lang yung nararamdaman ko for him for so long kasi it's not up to no good. I should thank myself for not pushing it pero siya naman yung nagpumilit and now, I can feel that I'm really going to lose him — for good.

This is what I was avoiding to happen, yet it's going to do so. Life's totally a bitch.

"Where do you want to eat?" he asked, smiling sheepishly at me. I never would've thought that he'll show me such emotions especially love nor will I thought that I will eventually lose it all at once.

"Ikaw bahala, it's your choice. I'll go wherever you want to go." For the last time, I wanted to add but it's to soon to mess up the day.

"Wait, is that Sid?" he asked, looking at a resto near us. Before I could said something, he immediately grab my hand walking towards the resto.

There I saw him... with Erika.

All along, I thought I was the only who would break someone's heart today but I thought wrong. Why do I feel that my heart's about to crack too?

I forgot, destiny's a bitch too.

"Francis," Sid greeted with enthusiasm but did I just saw it fade when he saw me? "Reese." Tipid siyang ngumiti.

"Hey," I simply greeted back and looked at the woman beside her. "Erika," I then smiled, staring at her.

"Hi Reese," she smiled aback.

A moment of silence when Sid suddenly asked, "Dito rin kayo kakain?"

"Well, we're still not deciding where to eat but I guess... this is a good place," Francis answered.

I wanted to excuse me and Francis to Sid and Erika but it's too late. Nagkasundo na agad silang dalawa leaving me to just agree with them while someone's looking at me, raising an eyebrow, as if expecting me to say no, and if we're in a drama scene maybe I would get a slapped from her any minute now.

But we're not.

As we all settled down in a table, everything that I thought I would do suddenly fades away. It's as if something replaced it, it's as if it is my heart which will be broken any second now.

Yet, it turns out. It's everyone's heart going to break into tiny pieces now.

I guess Francis and Sid finally realized that this dinner is not a good idea, that all of us joining together in a single table is not a good idea. It's funny to watch them act normal when in reality, they are bad actors.