Within The Despair

An End of an Era|Chapter 6

It wasn't the greatest. It felt okay in the moment. Alex and Maria were together and Zach found a purpose. I mean... I was happy those moments. Even so distance we were all bound to be friends. I just wished that things just ended here. I just...

I wish I did something before all. I wished I looked out and saw it. Now I cover my lies and cover her pain. Everyone was sad but got over it. Maria and Alex, Zach and Zen. Those four forgot a while ago. I wasn't going to let it side. There was no way to forget. The bitterness that filled my mind.

How stupid was I! Why couldn't I do something that Wednesday? Why the hell do I still think about it? I'm an adult now. I live a comfortable life but here I am, still thinking about the past.

I'm crazy to most. People thought I should belong in a mental hospital. Why? Why can't that face leave me? Why can't those tears go away? Why does her presence still lingers in me? Why... Why can't I just be happy?

I cry every night. I cry knowing how useless I was. A little death in the scale of things. White lies and black truths. I want to leave it to die. But I would just be leaving her to die.

What was that. You came here of a story. You want to know what happened. This is why you're here. Fine... I let you and find out the truth. -Evan

Maria and Alex went back to sleep. Nothing was normal though. Alex had a nightmare. A nightmare about her parents. It all happened so quickly.

Alex was at her house. She looking at her parents. Her was shaking and mind went hazy. She took a deep breath. Spoke to them and said,

"Mom, dad, I'm gay." Tears fell down her face. She was happy to tell them. She got the fear out. It should have been great. She accepted herself and found the confidence to say. Yet something didn't feel okay.

She looked up at her parents. Once happy faces became faces of disgust and anger. She looked down. Why? She hoped that they would accept her. Now they look down upon her.

"Why the hell should we be expected to love a disappointment like you!" Alex's dad shouted. Soon her mom cut in.

"Listen to you father, young lady. Shape up and forgot those devil thoughts." Alex's mom said.

Alex couldn't believe. If she didn't forget her feelings, she would be disowned. Follow the rules or follow her heart?

"Why! Why can't you accept me for who I am!" Alex screamed. She wasn't going to let them tear her down. They were her parents yes but she wasn't going to stand down. She held her pride up and didn't back down. She was going to fight for her truth.

Then Alex's dad came over to her. He held up his hand and hit her. He hit her with all his might. A purple bruise could be seen. The reality hit her. There was no way to fight it. Nothing would change the man's mind.

"Ungrateful Child! You dare stand before me and tell us, your family, that you're gay! You've committed the sin that shouldn't allow you the comfort of the house. I disown you. You are no longer my daughter!"

Alex couldn't do anything. The despair hit her. It should have gone better but it only went worse. She wanted it to be false. She wished it was fake. She cried. Not just in her mind but real tears too.

Maria had gotten up halfway through Alex's nightmare. She was half asleep and tried. She was never a morning person. She heard Alex's quiet sobs. She rushed over and hugged Alex's sleeping body. She had a feeling the nightmare was about Alex's parents. She cried while hugging her. She tried to shake her awake. No use tho. She just sat there with Alex crying body around her.

Alex soon woke up. She felt warmth, water on her and tears fall down her cheeks. She looked up to see Maria. Alex instinctively hugged Maria.

"God, why am I such a f*cking. Uggh!" Alex told herself. She hated when Maria cried. And now she's doing what she hated the most.