Being a Black Kpop Idol

❀Advice To TXT

It was the last day of the Lighting Tour. The 4 members landed in New York yesterday morning and are now rehearsing. Fatima was sitting down in the center of the stage as she looked around the huge arena that was sold out in minutes. Her eyes were getting blurry from the tears that were forming.

Priyanka sat down next to Fatima and wrapped her arms around her shoulders. No words were said as they felt the feeling of accomplishment, and it's all thanks to their fans, Lighting.

Behind them, stood Somi who was holding onto her camera and took a picture of the two unnies/ leader. She looked at the photo and smiled as she saw that it turned out good. She looked up at the two people that he loved very much. The two people that raised her as the person she is today. 

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Fatima heard from the staff that TXT was in the same state as them, and came to support their seniors. The girls were excited about TXT coming to their concert. Throughout Thunder's performance, the five boys were amazed. 

The way the concert is staged and the charisma and powerful energy they showcased. The way Thunder performed was also something that they took note of; they were professionals. The expressions they put on when they're dancing and how they put their own style into their singing and dancing. 

After a couple of songs, Thunder came out and introduce themselves as they made conversation with their fans. They were all paying attention but Soobin was paying attention to Fatima and Priyanka the most.

Soobin knows that Priyanka is like the co-leader of Thunder. There would be times where Fatima can't take the stress anymore and Priyanka steps in temporarily while Fatima takes a breather. Or, Fatima has to take care of her kids if they're sick. Fatima will go to Priyanka if she has a problem and stuck in a situation.

Soobin remembers talking with Fatima alone during his trainee days, explaining what it is to be a leader and how he shouldn't be afraid to rely on his members. Fatima told him before if he had any questions, to talk to her or Priyanka. Soobiin was feeling a pressure throughout their North America Tour.

In his perspective, he felt like he wasn't being a role and wasn't really taking his role seriously. He felt like he shouldn't let the members know what was going on with him. He came back to reality when he heard the voice of his noona who was speaking really good English. 

He smiled as he watched her laugh. He saw how all of the members were admiring their leader who was giving her speech of appreciation towards the fans. After the four-member group finishes their speeches, they went backstage to get ready for their next performance.

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The concert has finally come to an end. TXT was directed by one of the staff to the waiting room where they will meet Thunder. The boys were getting nervous as they sat on the couch waiting for Thunder. The five boys heard a noise and stood up thinking that it was Thunder but it really wasn't.

"It's been a while since we've seen our noonas. I'm getting so nervous." Beomgyu said as he jumped up and down.

Once they heard the door open, they all stood still. Mimi and Somi pushed the door wide open as she lifted her arms up in the air yelling, "TXT."

"Hello, my lovely boys," Fatima smiled as she hugged each one of them. 

She saw the look of worry on Soobin's face as she stood in front of him. She hugged him a little longer than the rest and rubbed his back in comfort. Fatima giggled as she patted his cheek, "Ah, I miss you, my cute dongsaeng."

 She sat next to Soobin who was starting to blush when she grabbed his hand and held it in her lap.

"Let's introduce ourselves. ONE DREAM, hello we are Tomorrow by Together."

"We have to be louder than them, " Somi said, as the group agreed with her.

"Boom. Boom. Hello, we are Thunder."

After their introduction, they all sat back down and started up the conversation. Most of it focused on their performance and tips and advice. TXT decided it was time to show their seniors their surprise that they planned. Fatima moved in next to Somi and put her on her lap to see their surprise. Huening Kai played the song as Taehyun was holding the notebook. 

"OMG! I think I'm going to cry," Fatima squealed as she hid her head in Somi's back.

As the group read the message, they took their words to hear and felt very appreciative. When they saw the last 3 words, they started screaming and jumping around the room.

"Yah, you made Fatima noona cry," Somi laughed, as she pointed at Fatima who was wiping her tears away.

Fatima got up and ran up to the boys and hugged them. 

"Group hug!" Priyanka yelled out happily as he came in as the rest follow. The staff took a picture of the moment, finding it very sweet.

As each group went to their separate room, Soobin stopped Fatima and asked her if he could talk to her for a couple of minutes. Fatima saw how nervous Soobin was; he was mostly looking down, playing with his fingers. She took into a room where they could talk. She grabbed his hand and interlocked it with hers. 

"What's wrong, Soobin? Are you okay? You can talk to me, you know?"

He sighed shakily as he nodded his head. 

"I know I can, but it's just I'm very overwhelmed right now, noona. I don't feel the title leader shouldn't be given to me. The members are trusting with me with their career and I don't know if I could do that right?" he said as his voice cracked as he looks down trying to control his feeling.

Fatima felt her heartbreak as she saw Soobin crying. She saw herself in him when she first was assigned the position leader. She sat next to him and pulled him in a hug. She laid his head on her shoulder and rubbed his back.

"Listen to me, Soobin. Being a leader does take a toll on you, but you wouldn't be a leader if your members didn't believe in you and thought that you could do it. As you live and bond with your brothers, you will be able to see because of them, you are becoming a great leader. Priyanka used to tell me don't hide my emotions from the other members, because if you keep bottling it up, you're eventually going to break down. You need to be able to express what you feel because you all will be able to know each other deeply."

"You are still growing and learning. There will be times where you think everything is breaking, but remember that your responsibility and honor as a leader should never break. With that mindset, your group will also see it. I know that you look up towards me, but I don't want you to. Don't follow the footsteps of others on how to become a leader. Becoming one is how you really do it." she softly said, wiping the tears from his cheeks and pinching it softly which made him laugh.

He sniffed smiling as he understood everything. 

"Thank you noona, I really appreciate it."

"I'm always here for you, as the same goes for everyone else. Don't hide your feeling anymore. You can rely on Yeonjun. It's not healthy, my baby. You can always call or text me if you need anything else." she said, as they got up and walked to TXT's room hand in hand.

As they walked in, the TXT members were surprised to see their leader crying. They all ran up to Soobin and asked him why he was crying. Fatima told them to sit and he'll tell them. She sat next to him while he was explaining to the members about his problem. Yeonjun started crying and apologizing to him that he couldn't be a hyung to him when he could come to him about his problem.