Being a Black Kpop Idol

Chapter 5: Fights

Fatima POV 

We are at Big Hit practicing to perform at the MAMA. We were doing a dance break with two of our sunbaenims' songs and Everyday.  A lot of pressure was put on us since it's our first award shows. 

The dance break had so much run off and on the stage. We had to get in the spot at the correct time. Precision is the key and now it's just a matter of perfecting. 

Jun oppa as our choreography leader was leading us and the back-up dancers step by step through the steps while our choreography was looking at us. It was nearly the end of 5 minute break. I was laying down on the couch with my eyes close.

"Fatima! Break ended. Let's go." Jun oppa yelled. I flinched in surprised and let out a big sigh and got up, annoyed at everything right now.

"We are going through it one more time. I'm gonna to watch and take notes of everything we need to fix." He told us and we nod.

We got in our position and waited for the music to start.

We dance perfectly in front of the mirror and everything looks good from my perspective, until Jun oppa turned off the music. His thumb and pointer finger gripping on the bridge of his nose as he breathed in and out, trying to calm down.

Everyone was breathing heavily and nervously waiting for what he's going to say.

"Tima, you were a half beat late throughout the chorus. Move a little faster." Jun Oppa scolded even though I didn't know what he was talking about, I just nodded and went back to starting position.

After nearly ending the song, he stopped the music again. I was annoyed because I knew he was going to pick on me even though I didn't mess nowhere in the song. Everyone was letting out an annoyed sigh, tired of having to stop. 

"Tima! You're supposed to wait a couple seconds before you come to the center." Jun oppa scolded me again.

I looked at Sungdeuk oppa with a "Is he serious?" look and slowly nodded sadly giving me a apologetic look. I nodded understandingly and continued.

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The amount of frustrations and stress that have been going to me is insane. In the pas hour, I've gotten more than 10 scoldings from everyone. Jun oppa, H.Sik oppa, even Mimi.

Jun oppa was so frustrated that he went to his studio. Everyone was in the resting room, drinking water and talking in a group while I was alone in the corner, playing with my empty water bottle. My head was resting on my hands, looking down until I saw some shoes in front of me through the hole. 

I looked up to see H.Sik oppa in front of me. I didn't even want to talk to him so I looked down and let out a sigh.

"If you're going to yell at me then save me." I said, lowing, anger slowly building up.

"Look. I know that it is a difficult time right now, but-" I cut him off, not wanting to hear this bullshit.

"Stop-" I stood up and stare at him angrily.

"I know it's frustrating for someone to mess up multiple of times, BUT Oppa and everyone else kept yelling and letting all of their anger out on one person. ME! When I'm just as frustrated  as you are. It's no fair to me just as much as it's not fair to you guys." I ranted to H.Sik oppa who kept quiet for a while.

"That's true, but we started learning this choreography for a month now, it makes no sense for you to keep messing up so much." Mimi butts in, walking toward us.