"Can't I be happy"

You lived, I longed

 "Mike,Get up we're here" Nancy said, Mike awoke to look to see a small white house.It had been a whole year since he has seen El and Will. El and him had since broke up but nothing was awkward between them, it was mutual thing.He was oddly nervous though, he could feel butterflies and he was getting dizzy almost.He stepped out of the car and on cue El,Johnathan and Wills mom ran out,where was will ? " Will is almost here, he was out with friends " Joyce announced, so he had found a new party? it hurt Mike to say that even in his mind, he shook off the feeling and waited.Loud music could be heard blasting down the street, "should I stay or should I go" a bunch of teenagers yelled as a Red 1980 convertible Mercedes pulled up,  and out hopped

Will? Mike asked not sure if the question was to himself,Sure enough it was  Itty Bitty Will except Itty Bitty Will wasn't as Itty Bitty. He ran around the car to the boy in the drivers seat, whispered something to him and then kissed him.Full.on.Kissed.Him. Will was a boy kissing another boy??? Mike was wide eyed, processing what he just saw, then he noticed, His chest was bubbling, his stomach was churning,his skin was crawling, He had no problem with boys being together because love was love but this one boy made Mike want to throw him off a bridge.Mike blinked his eyes and pushed that feeling down as Will ran up the driveway, "MIKE!" Will almost tackled him in a hug which mike gladly returned, " What none for us?" Max said regarding Lucas Dustin and her. Will pulled himself away and Mike felt like he had been deprived.As will was talking to the other Mike took a chance to look at him, He was bit taller but still shorter then the rest of the group, His style was now made up of a small mustard shirt and jean shorts, his jaw had gotten sharper,His hair was slightly different, he had a nice as-"MIKE?,Mike?" Mike was shaken out of his thoughts  " huh?"  Mike asked " Do you think we could play some D&D just for old times sake?" Will asked giving a look that anybody in there right mind couldn't say no to.

"So whats going on with you, do you like it here?" Max asked" oh I love it, the people here are so kind and the  Art program at school is amazing" Will finished " Art program?" Dustin asked " oh yeah its like a class and you learn how to draw and stuff" Will trailed off not wanting to bother people with his boring topics.The conversation  had switched to El and her life, Will was glad to stay quiet and listen.Will was sitting doodling on a page," what about you Will? who were you locking lips with?"  Lucas asked, Will tilted his head in confusion tis, he realized he had kissed his boyfriend in front of them " oh that's Andrew, he's my boyfriend" Will continued to doodle like he had just said nothing. " BOYFRIEND!" They all said eyes wide, Mike was feeling off again he shook it off though,"yeah, I mean he asked me out like a month ago and he's really sweet" Will brushed his hair behind ear " we will talk more in detail about this later" Max stated ad the phone rang. " hello,Will Byers speaking" Will listened to who ever was talking on the phone " hang on, lemme check" he pulled the phone down from his ear and yelled"MOM, Is it okay if Andrew joins us for dinner" " thats fine"Joyce responded " Okay, thank you" he put the phone back up to his ear " yeah she says its fine,okay see you then babe " Will put down the phone " he wants to meet you guys".

They had played D&D and talked all afternoon, Then dinnertime came. The doorbell rung as ever one was getting settled " That's probably Andrew, excuse me" Will left to answer the door you could hear him from then hall way " Andrew, hey" a deep voice answered " Hi,May I join in" Will must have nodded because they walked into the Dining room and took their seats. Mike looked at Andrew, He had green eyes and red hair and was definitely taller than Will.After a bit of awkward silence Andrew cleared his throat" So these  people are your old party" Andrew asked Will " yep, thats Mike,Max,Dustin,and Lucas" Will said while point to each of them " ahhh okay " Andrew nodded and continued to eat. Through out dinner there wasn't one moment where whispering or giggles could be heard on the other end Mike didn't know why but it made him want to thrown up and punch someone at the same time, more or less this Andrew dude is who he wanted to punch, He didn't know why Andrew seemed nice but something through Mike off.

Mike didn't like Andrew, no not in the slightest, he threw mike off his game and made him mad by Mike  just looking at him and Will. Something had to be wrong with him Mike didn't just hate people for the fun of it, He was stealing Will away from his party,from Mike.The couple spent the whole night laughing and messing with each other, it was disgusting to Mike, Will friends were here he should be paying attention to Him er Them instead of Andrew.Mike sat the whole night with a bitter look on his face and an even more bitter feelings, almost scoring at the two whenever they did something.Andrew finally left and it was time to go to sleep, due to space Max was staying with El, Dustin and Lucas were stay in the guest room and Nancy was staying with Johnathan,  which left Mike with Will. Mike walked up to Will's room and came inside, It was small the walls covered in posters and art and records on the gray walls with tiny burst of paint on them presumably from Will painting and getting messy, it represented Will perfectly  Mike thought. " hey you gonna stand there or are you gonna lay down" Will asked, Mike looked to see Will laying on the bed, he joined him " do you like it here?" Mike asked " Oh I love it here, it so nice and so accepting and just ugh good" Will answered smiling " so if you got the chance to move back home? would you go back? " Mike asked afraid of the answer "I don't know" Will answered not aware of the knife it stabbed in Mike's heart,Will may never come home? May never come back to him?  He shut the light off next to him and after a few minutes Will went to sleep, Mike stayed up his mind wandering lost, fearful, and longing.