"Can't I be happy"

I Longed,You Loathed

"Mike, my friend mike is coming today " Will excitingly told his boyfriend, " isn't that the one you used to like " will hesitated but answered yes because he liked his relationship and wasn't going to lie to his dearest boyfriend of 2 months. "shouldn't you be going now" Will looked at his watch  3:57 they should be there at 4:00 " yeah  I should can you drive me ? So they drove ,music blasting Will singing the whole way there, they arrived " kiss for good luck ?"Andrew asked Will got out of the car and went to his side " i'm gonna need it babe" as he kissed him and walked to greet his friends. They had no problem with his  boyfriend as he figured they wouldn't but somethings seemed off with mike like a picture frame that was tilted slightly and nobody could notice but you.They played D&D, Mike keep getting weirder and weirder Will would look at Mike only to see his head snap away and pretend to be focused in something else it Will would be talking and when anyone tried to interrupt what he was saying they were giving a dirty look by mike and a solid " shut up" even El was told that. Then it was dinner time and his boyfriend had came he expected all his friends to be happy but Mike seems even more weird scowling across the table at them and ignoring anything Andrew had tried to even say. 

Today was the day however, they head back to Indiana, Will was not feeling as shattered as he did the last time they left but it still hurt these were his best friends. Mike however was in pain he was leaving Will again, and to make it worse with someone he didn't trust. a million what ifs crossed his mind, this Andrew kid set off all of Mike buttons in the wrong way. Andrew wasn't what Will needed, Will needed someone who would comfort him when he was feeling low and protect him like his life depended on it, someone who would believe him when no one else would and always care about him no matter where, someone who would go crazy with him. Mike had felt weird after saying that but he had to do something about Andrew before he left so 20 minutes before leaving he invited Will to the garage.

"What's up?" Will asked Mike who had been waiting for him "I don't want you seeing Andrew" Mike started " huh" Will said not believing Mike. " did someone put you up to this ?" Will asked looking Mike directly in the eyes, Mike could see the hurt and sadness behind Wills eyes but this had to be done " no he gives me an off put feeling and i don't feel like that's good". Wills eyes quickly turned to anger after Mikes last sentence "are you fucking serious?" Will asked " are.you.Fucking.Serious.Mike" Will said with poison and malice dripping in his words.Mike had never had Will angry with him before so he had no idea what to say he thought this would just be a quick discussion that ended in Will listening instead he was starting to become more angry by the second. "Listen I just think " but he was cut off " No you listen Mike, Andrew is everything i have ever wanted ,he is Kind, Understanding, and Trustworthy. He has been there for me when no one else is and no one else was. he has treated me with kindness and care every since I meant him nothing else. He's given me happiness that no one else has ever given me in life, not the party , not my family and right now definitely not you." Will  finished ranting Mike took it all in and studied Will he was teary eyed and fuming, " Like i told you he gives me a bad feeling and I don't trust it  what if he ends up hurting you" Will looked back at him " You're  worried hes gonna hurt me because you have a "bad feeling" about him ? that is the most bullshit thing i've ever heard" Will almost yelled he would have if they weren't three feet away from the rest of the people staying there. Mike went to yell back then Will  burst into tears, he wasn't just crying though he was... giggling? " for years ,for fucking years I have waited for this moment and when it finally comes i'm happy ?" will said as if he was taking to the sky , Mike went to speak "huh?" was all he could muster to say "don't you get it?" Will asked Mike " for years I had a crush on you and i waited for you to show any amount of interest in me, and now i'm happy and you're not Mike, why are you unhappy ? you weren't the one who waited for what never came, I was. I haven't given any reason and neither has andrew to make you upset, yet you still don't like it, every time i'm happy it's like it's you goal mike to make me unhappy like it's your job" Will said he voice weak as he was crying while saying these things " It's not like that" Mike tried to defend "yes it is, I have a crush on you and i think you might like me back then boom there's El, I have a boyfriend who likes me then boom you don't like him.Im tired Mike,I'm tired of making other people happy, I'm tired of you not letting me be happy, Can't i be happy ?"Will finished voice barely above a whisper. Mike didn't know what to say his mind was swirling with feelings so all that came out was an "oh" Will laughed weakly " have a nice trip home" he turned and headed inside saying bye to the others and Watching them drive off headed for home. 

Will heart hurt and his nerves were buzzing he hated fighting with Mike and he had just told him his biggest secret, he didn't sleep well that night. Mike mind was processing while everyone else was sleeping he was thinking, as soon as the got to hawkins Mike had a revelation, 

                                                                               He.Liked.Will