YOU DAZZLE ME !!!

NOT AGAIN

The day dragged itself to its end and here I was, silent. Whatever happened after lunch shocked me to the core. Was it really a sin to be with someone who carried a magnificent baggage behind him? Surely, money is a necessity and I am definitely aware of it. Infact, it's my necessity that drove me to work but today's situation made me see things with a completely different perspective. Was it so bad to not have a money background?

WOW. The way everyone reacted, shows what people respected more. A person or it's financial background.

While I was digesting the facts, I went in a silent mode. The anger on Aarav's face didn't scare me but a tinch of fear was there. I didn't want to face him for the day. Somewhere I was feeling guilty to put him in such situation. Everything that happened in the lobby, was somewhere my fault. I was the sole reason for the commotion.

I was internally cursing myself to bring something like this to him. My life was always a messy one and I thought, maybe something good was going to happen after so long but I was so wrong. My life's curse followed me even here and it was somehow started ruining things for people around me. For a second, I thought to run away, again. But I knew, the change of place will not be able to help me. I needed to find solutions. I needed to find methods to survive situations.

I was lost for the whole time and when I looked at my watch, it showed 5:15pm. Office was already closed 15 minutes ago. I got up abruptly, and collected my things, getting ready to go back home. I opened my office's door and was welcomed by a wonderful sight in front of me.

Aarav.

"Aarav? Were you waiting for me?" He nodded at my question.

"Why didn't you come inside then?"

"I thought..... I didn't want to disturb you."

"Aarav. You'll never disturb me." He sighed and held my hand in his.

"Can you stay with me today? My house? I... I want to be with you."

I looked at him and saw a hint of sadness mixed with a slight anger all over his face. He was still stressed with the incident so I agreed. Even I needed to keep myself away from all those negative thoughts and he was the best distraction for me.

"Yes. If you want me to. I want to stay with you. I need distraction Aarav and only you can help me in this."

If it was a normal day I would have felt shy to tell him that he had the tendency to distract me, but today wasn't an usual day. We both wanted support, someone to lean on. He wanted someone to calm him down. Whereas I wanted a simple distraction from all the horrible thoughts. Aarav's voice brought me out of my thoughts.

"Let's go then."

We left the building and went to the parking lot and took our seats. The ride was quiet, but it was a comfortable silence. A few minutes later, we arrived at his building and scurried towards his apartment. He opened the door and pulled me towards the living room after closing the front door.

"Get comfortable. Ok. I'll get you water."

He left me and went to the kitchen. I pulled myself and settled on the couch. This was the second time I was here, sitting at the same place like last time. Aarav came back with a glass of water and gave it to me. I gulped down the whole glass and kept it on the table in front.

Aarav held my hand and pulled me slowly towards him. I pulled up my courage and encircled my hands around his waist, bringing him in a tight hug.

"I love you baby. I am so sorry. I never thought something like this would happen. I... I..."

"Aarav. Don't say sorry. It wasn't your fault. This was bound to happen. People will talk and we can't shut everyone mouth. We just need to ignore them."

"I know baby. But what I saw today... I was so angry."

"I know. In fact I should be sorry love. I was the reason for everything that happened. I am..."

"No baby. Don't complete that line. Let's just forget it. I don't want to talk about that anymore." I nodded in agreement. So he continued.

"I missed you. I missed us. I missed your touch baby. I was already going crazy to hold you in my arms. I think that yearning for your touch transformed into anger when I saw someone insulting you today. I just lost it baby."

"Ssshhhh. Aarav I understand. I missed you too. I missed being in your arms."

Aarav tightened his hold on me. His left  hand caressing my back and his right, tangled in my hairs. His kissed my shoulder softly. I pulled my face upwards to give him more exposure to my skin. He kept kissing my shoulder and proceeded towards my neck and lastly reached my ears. He gave a light nibble to my earlobe and said.

"Let's carry on in the bedroom baby."

I was so lost in the sensation that my words got caught up in my throat. I just nodded in acknowledgement. Aarav held my back and brought his other hand under my thighs to pick me up. He carried me in his arms and led us both towards his room.

He placed me down on his bed and laid down next to me.

"Aarav. Can we just cuddle? I want time to take the next step."

"Yes baby. Don't worry. Whenever you are ready. Ok?"

He smiled and pulled me to himself. I put my head on his chest and wrapped my arms around his waist.

"You are so comfy, you know. I can actually get used to it."

"Anything for you baby. Anything. I love you. I love you so much."

"I love you too Aarav. A lot. More than my life."

And with that said, we both fell in a deep slumber.

"NO. LEAVE ME."

"DIVYA. Divya. Baby get up. It's a nightmare. Get up. Please baby."

These words woke me up from my nightmare. The same nightmare again. I was already breathing heavily and sweating and when I looked up, I saw Aarav in a panic state, holding my shoulders with his hands.

He cupped my face and wiped away my tears with his thumb. My breathing normalised and I embraced him in a tight hug. He was caressing my back and hair which eventually relaxed me. My eyes started getting heavy again. But there were only two words that were racing through my mind.

NOT AGAIN.