Written by Dr. Rukhsar Siddiqui aka @ruks145
First my mind constricts,
Then I recoiled into myself,
Feeling suddenly alone,
So alone,
My stomach disturbs and rumbles,
Finding my hands go slack,
Then my mind cloggs,
My head is heavy,
With burden I don't realise,
Then headache starts,
My whole self fills with rage,
I want to break something,
Anything and still I know that,
That is so lame,
Others call it temper tantrum,
I don't know how to name it,
And yet it happens so many times,
Something is seriously wrong with me.
Others don't realise it,
I am feeling so depressed,
Others call it my fault,
Others name it my wrong doing,
Others mention it my sin,
Others think of it my bad character,
I once wanted to be so good,
Then they taunted me,
I stopped,
Now they blamed me,
I asked with myself,
Something is seriously wrong with me.
I am a cripple,
And no one wants to know,
I want to cry,
Others call it my drama,
I want to breakdown,
Yet, others don't want to see me like this,
I call it my responsibility,
Others show that they don't need me,
I got hurt so much,
Others think it doesn't matter as such,
My heart aches with pain,
Others find it easy to miss,
I want to let go,
They hold me to my tongue,
I want to call out for help,
Others should not need to listen to this,
I am holding it for years,
Others don't want to find cure for this,
Something is seriously wrong with me,
Maybe I am going crazy.
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Here's my usual self. I wrote it down during one of my anxious states. It's not difficult writing it down. Expression of emotions is only difficult when others don't want to be at the receiving end.
The only place where no one can stop me from writing my heart out is Wattpad.
I hope you will like like it.
With regards,
ruks145
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