• 【𝐬𝐨 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞】 • 𝘴𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘢𝘭 𝘥𝘦𝘬𝘶 • вαкυ∂єкυ • ☽

Middle school- Just let me go. {Prolouge 2/2}

Writing this about 3 hours after the first one so hopefully, I can get it out before I snooze. -v- Also I'm writing this after binging a certain katsudeku depression story so I may be taking some ideas from it!

Izuku's POV after running off to the bathroom.

I frantically ran into the bathroom and to the farthest stall. I dropped a few quarters that I used for lunch food. I quickly picked them up whilst hoping nobody heart the jungle and thud of them falling to the floor followed by the freakout and repetitive swivel back and forth of the coins.

Horrible thoughts filled my head, some making me want to tear my head inside out. I was shaking so bad that I had to pace the stall to calm down. I had stared the purchaseables down when it hit me. I can purchase razors with my money. 'People use these for shaving!' I quickly scrambled over to the dispenser placing my coins in and hoping for the best. I turned the nob shakily to be greeted with relief and little less shaking.

The razor fell swiftly from its resting place. I snatched it from the machine and headed back into the stall while still shaking. I then pounded it against the wall hoping it would break it and make it come undone. It worked! I successfully got 4 tiny blades from the razor, put 3 in my pocket and placed one on the toilet paper holder.

‼️⚠️ ;; This next part may be disturbing to some. ;;⚠️‼️

I slid my sleeve up to reveal old scars, thin to wide, light to deep, long to short. I held the blade up to my wrist to question if I should continue.
Do it, nobody cares about you.
Nobody loves you, that's why you feel like this.
Do it, pussy.
Coward.
Freak.
Fatty.
Loser.
Cut you fucking loser.
You will always be a shitty Deku in Kacchan's eyes.
Cut, it will make you feel better.
Do you want to be in pain forever?
Cut.
You're contemplating this like a coward when you could actually be fixing yourself. What a shame.
CUT.
You're so worthless, maybe you should take a swan-dive.
CUT!
The voices commented.
'I DON'T NEED YOUR DAMN FEEDBACK! Stop reminding me how big of a FAILURE I am!' Tears streamed down my face as I started to slice away at my wrists. I flashed back to the time when I and Kacchan were playing in the woods. I collapsed onto the bathroom stall floor, blood dripping from my wrists. I began to rock back in forth and shake like crazy, the thoughts just kept creeping in. I sliced at my skin even more.
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8
14
25..
I sliced until there was no more room then switched to the other arm.
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6
12
17
20....I fell into a daze and kept slicing, regardless of how much I bled.
I snapped out of it hearing the bell ring and the patter of footsteps through the hallway. I realized how deep and how many times I cut myself and quickly reached into my bag to grab bandages. It was about 3:50. I got out of the stall, washed my arms and wrapped them gently in bandages, layers on layers, thickening as I saw blood seep through every layer I wrapped.
I put the blade used into my bag after washing it off. I felt relieved but guilty.

({Safe to read now, but a sensitive topic is coming up. =^^=})

I dried my hands, carefully snatched an un-used paper towel from the dispenser and headed up the stairs to the roof. When I reached the roof I quickly scribbled all of my thoughts onto the paper towel whilst preparing myself. 'Am I really about to do this?'

Bakugo's POV

After bolting out the door just as my mother finished a well-made dinner, I was running frantically back to school only to see a dark figure dangling their feet over the roof railing. "SHIT SHIT SHIT!!" I said out loud. If that is my broccoli boy on that railing, I need to move fast.
I bolted up the stairs and onto the roof where I saw him. Light fluffy, emerald green hair curled to perfection. His light soft hands shaking, placing his shoes right before him. I saw him slip a note into his shoes that was written on a paper towel.

I felt frozen, I couldn't move, speak, or take action. I was stuck. I was so scared but I couldn't move. I couldn't run up to him to comfort him, take him in my arms as I plop back onto the roof flooring whispering comforting words into his ear. Making him feel loved and forgetting about the world. I couldn't apologize as I hug him tightly and talk everything out. I couldn't because I was frozen.

I tried to speak but all that came out was silent nothings. All I could do is stand there, eyes wide, stiffly posed, and in shocking terror, regret, sorrow, and guilt.

A loud strike of thunder rang into one ear and out the other. I was out of the paralyzation. I screamed out; "IZUKU! PLEASE GET OFF THE RAILING! I DIDN'T MEAN WHAT I SAID AND IT'S GOING TO RAIN!" He didn't turn around, nor did he show any signs of getting down. Merely all he did was ignore me. I felt powerless and started to get enraged due to the darkness surrounding my mind and body, dragging me down into the depths of angst.

Izuku's POV

I was thinking of so many things at once, I drowned out the world around me enough to center myself in self-hatred and pity. I couldn't see, everything was going black, I was getting dizzy. A faint light in the sky and weakening of my back started to occur. I started swaying as my back and thighs got weaker and weaker, unable to support my weight. I was starting to faint due to the undealt with the pain of my wrists, which nobody knew about except for me, the loser who's about to take his life.

Bakugo's POV

'Can this nerd not hear me?! It's like he's zoned out! Fuckin' hell what do I have to do to show I'm sorry!' I thought to myself. I moved closer thinking he will still dazed. I was about 10 feet away from him until I saw his body start to sway in all different directions causing the position he was sitting in to fail, he started to fall over the railing. 'OH FUCKING GOD OH SHIT FUCK SHIT FUCKK! THIS ISN't HAPPENING! BAKUGO FUCKING MOVE YOUR LEGS!!'

3rd Person POV

The young ashy blonde-haired boy soon realized his childhood friend was fainting over a ledge tall and high enough to take him completely away. The green-haired boy swayed as his back went limp as he clenched his arms. The ashy blonde acted quickly whilst many things were clearly racing through his mind. He bolted to the railing to have just caught the boy by his wrist. He may not have realized it, but by grabbing the boy's wrist, it opened several of the secret cuts on the broccoli boy's arm. The boy's eyes widened as he shrieked in pain. He begged, "Please let go, that hurts!" The other frantically shook his head and frowned. He then monotonously said, "Just let me go..." The young hero's eyes filled with tears as he shouted "NO!" He then grew confused as to why he was so hurt at him grabbing at his wrist. Without a second thought, he yanked him up back over the railing and collapsed with the boy in his arms while shaking and crying in the rain. They were drenched and cold, but the natural heat of their bodies kept them warm for the time being. The warmth didn't fade quickly so they just sat in each other's arms trying to comprehend what just happened. To the young heroes surprise and relief.

His childhood friend was safe.

end.

A/N

WoooOoOOaHhHhHH I feel quite proud of this. I also managed to get this story out as I planned. Two stories in one day, damn!! Ok so- I kinda grew to realize toward the end that I may have shown too much emotion this early on but maybe it was a good thing...? This story is still going to be updated frequently (i hope) and I have so much in store for you guys!!!!!!!!! ^////^ anyways, thanks for reading, I have many ideas and plans for this story in the future and I hope I'm able to cover every detail that was imagined. Let me know what you think of the fanfic so far, I'd love to hear your guyses feedback! I'll be updating either tomorrow or sometime this week if I'm feeling motivated. Also, sorry for the spelling errors. Before you assume I'm young, I'm not. I'm at a mature enough age where you guys should expect some spicy scenarios sometime soon -////-Enough rambling and again, thanks for reading!! Love u guys;00
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