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Back to Square One {7}

Izuku's PoV
I did it. I was clean for almost a week now thanks to Kacchan being clingy and never letting me out of his sight or arms. The urges were so strong but I couldn't as I had nothing to do it with and Kacchan has been around me 24/7. I decided I was going to go out and try to get more blades. Kacchan walked out of the bathroom with bags under his eyes. He hasn't been getting alot of rest lately due to always making sure I don't "do something fucking stupid." He glared at me for a moment before walking over and hugging me. "Hey, I'm going to walmart, you need anything?" My eyes widened. "C-can I come with you..?" He looked at me confused but nodded his head hesitantly.

(timeskip lol)
We arrived at the store finally and I needed to get away from him somehow. I felt so shaky and nervous. If I mess this up Kacchan probably won't be able to trust me anymore.. "Deku, you coming?" I quickly looked up and smiled while frantically waving my hands. "Y-yeah! I just need go grab some.. hoodies." I smiled and walked away. Kacchan grabbed at my forearm and turned me around while gazing into my eyes expressionless. "Don't do anything stupid, nerd.." He said while yanking his hand from my fore arm and then kissing my forehead. I started to quicken my pase toward the shaving section. When I saw the bag of blades I quickly grabbed them and put them in my pocket, rushing back to the front to check out. I don't know how I'm going to hide them but I'll figure it out I guess.. I shakily walked up to the register placing the blades on the counter. The register worker chuckled for a second. "..?" "Aha, sorry. You just don't come off as a kind of person to shave." I looked him dead in the eyes and said, "I don't." I also placed an antiseptic and bandages down afterward. His eyes widened from shock and I just grabbed the stuff and walked away to find a new register. I mumbled under my breath with annoyance, "horrible customer service.." My new register options were my awkward encounter buddy, an old lady maybe in her 60's, a tall preist looking dude with bibles everywhere or an emo looking teenage girl. I went with the last option in hopes it woudln't spark up a conversation. I set the things on the counter and noticed she was wearing long sleeves inside of her uniform. I looked at her nametag, her name was Melissa. "Thanks Melissa.." I said as I walked away but she spoke before I was able to escape the scene. "Be careful with that stuff, alright..?" I turned around to see a faint smile on her face. "I will, thank you for caring." She then offered me her number if incase I ever needed a hand. I accepted and we added eachother to our phones. "You remind me of my girlfriend alot, same features except she has long black hair with bangs." She smiled at me. I felt the sudden urge to spill my whole life story out to her as I had just met her and she already came out to me with ease and comfort. "Haha, t-thank you.. I should probably get going. My boyfriend is shopping and I don't want him getting suspicious of this stuff as he just threw all my sharps out about a week ago.." Her face expression dropped a bit and then sadly smiled. "Any step closer is a big step, I'm proud of you. Try talking to him and getting the help you deserve." I smiled and then walked off. "Oi, Deku." He put his hand on my shoulder which caused me to flinch abruptly. "O-oh hey K-Kaccan..." I flashed a quick painfully forced smile. "Lemme see what's in the bag nerd" He said while reaching his hand out to the grey plastic. I quickly pull it away and blurt out an excuse. "N-no! You can't! I b-bought you a present...!" His eyes narrowed first in anger and then confusion. "Fine.. let's get going nerd." I sighed again at him calling me nerd, but I was used to it. It was sort of a pet name now. I had the sudden urge to slash away at my wrists. "I'll b-be right back. I need to p-pee.." "Your studder made it sound like you said pp." My face turned red as I walked into the walmart bathroom. I sat in a stall and opened the blades.

(tw)

I looked at the shining silver blade before me. I felt so happy. I started to slash down my wrists knowing nobody else was in the restroom, I checked to make sure. I slashed away happily now that I was able to do so. I guess I got a little carried away, black dots filled my vision as blood fountained out of my arm splurting everywhere. "F-fuck! What the hell, FUCK!" I screamed sort of silently. "...Midoriya...?" WAS WAS HE HERE!?

a/n
cliff hanger sorry not sorry ( ' ▽ ' ) anyways I'm sorry for the short chapter... lost motivation a little. Hope you enjoyed, leave your opinions in the comments and maybe a vote. thanks, love you all! 💗

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